A Different Feeling 🤍

Before this different feeling post of today~~~ always a few other things, right? First, glance down when you can. Yep, a selfie but here’s why. It actually is a pic I am using on some socials right now but the real reason is this. I just didn’t like any lately of Ultimate Warrior on media or looking at my collection., That hasn’t happened in such a while so what the heck, you get me today. So there. Second point as a lead in and I have to share a little funny. When watching SmackDown a few weeks ago, (like I said with Hulk’s tribute,) and after that segment was over~~~ I really wasn’t going to keep watching. They did, however insert other clips throughout the show. Here’s where it gets funny.

I told my husband how we can change the channel with no DVRing wrestling as that part was all I wanted to see. He said NO!!! Huh, who is this person? He didn’t feel like switching around and decided to keep it on. I said he totally can watch something else because seriously, I totally didn’t care. So, guess what? I kept watching too just to see or hear any reactions as my son came in. He just mentioned it being fake but his responses really weren’t the ones that surprised me. It was my husband and daughter whose interest became held~~~ more so than mine. I say, it was comical in a way but hey~~~ I got to share in a 2️⃣ hour episode about wrestling with them. What universe is this? 😜 The excitement that intrigued them were the upcoming “SummerSlam” matches. My husband was amazed by Jelly Roll, while my girl is a huge Logan Paul fan on YouTube already so she came in during that time. Of course I had relayed celebrities being part of WWE for years now so it isn’t a new thing. It was just an unforeseen moment in time to watch and see them kind of cheering for someone in their own “wrestling way.” 😲

OK, then~~~ onto those feelings which have crept up within me and stayed. It just is different somehow as I knew it would be. Time does go on and yet, bit by bit the past fades. Always legendary as remembered and yet still hurting. Do you understand wrestling fans? Yep, Hulk’s passing it is and with it brings newer perspectives for sure. I’m not making this another sad tribute but bittersweet while contemplating. I just have so much greater respect for them all now it seems more than ever. ❤️‍🩹 Yes, we move forward to the here and now and have to but there’s still that lingering sense of loss and sadness.

As adults, we are still kids at heart, true? We are allowed to hold onto those people, things, and events that once defined us and yet not too tightly as I blogged a few years back. It’s super tough redefining ourselves and going in another direction. Memories will always remain and we choose to make new ones~~~ however that works for us. It just takes time to adjust to a new “normal” without what once was. I just believe in my gut that somehow, someway we think it will be the same or that some are indeed “ immortal” despite their actions. We know this is not true and yet with being human, it just comes. To quote Ultimate Warrior: “ physically, none of us can live forever!” *** The feel is different. Maybe you are this way too or with other situations that have happened in your life. Can you tell?

I remember when watching old matches and thinking how EVERYONE of them involved is gone now. How can that be? Wasn’t it just 1989 (or fill in a year, I thought of “SummerSlam” as that’s the theme now.) UW versus Rick Rude~~~ more on him in a bit… Wasn’t I just 17? We can’t wallow and yet need our own time to process~~~ TIME… Another reason I love the genuine folks keeping moments alive with pro wrestling and especially the old WWF days. Check out “ The Wrestling Collector” store in New Jersey owned by Tommy Fierro who also owns ISPW. He has TONS of merch and even old VHS tapes. That takes me back… 🙂‍↕️ Legends make appearances too. He cohosts the 80s wrestling podcast where I am a frequent caller! Some even make it such a huge passion but as long as you don’t live there. One day with my kids, this will all be a forgotten piece of my life but right now I am fully present as I have to be. I so enjoy being part of the weekly podcast and tomorrow’s is all about “Ravishing Rick Rude.” Maybe I’ll call in again. I mentioned him earlier…🤔

A different feeling absolutely and perhaps the next time I watch WMVI ~~~ “ The Ultimate Challenge” I will applaud it all as it was too soon a few weeks ago… Will I be watching any other WWE related content soon? Who knows but I’m following John Cena’s storyline and catch some YouTube videos when I want. It’s so crazy today what with social sites, videos everywhere, etc. that it’s tough to NOT know what’s going on. But all is a choice and for a little bit, I still care~~~ a little…

Warrior might say I’m such a “mark,” but I am selective, ha! The old days are behind us as memories are irreplaceable. Yes, I did look up results for “ SummerSlam” but didn’t share with my husband or daughter. You know what though? He actually KNEW results as it came with “ news”on his phone. How about that? A different feeling yet again… I’ll tag you all in next week, hopefully with a UW photo too!

P.S. Here’s a quote I recently read from a YouTube video: “ Legends don’t die. They echo.” WOW… 😮 A different feeling once again… 🥹

AND~~~ I have recently added Hulk’s name to my list during meditation. I tell Warrior to say hi to many from me… I jokingly add to just not have him win “ The Ultimate Challenge!” 😉