Tag: assertiveness

Well, it’s October so I am slamming into this month! I DID find a Bluejay feather last Wednesday on my walk. It’s always super special finding one on writing days… 🥰 That pic of Warrior below is the EXACT image that came to me when deciding on a photo this week. I had to find it~~~ of course, but his expression there~ yep, totally fits today. Anger and frustration from some indeed just like he felt with many in his life at times. I could’ve used a promo from his feud with Hercules as he spoke those words, but that WCW pic entered my mind as I went with it.

Venting rant coming so get ready for battle warriors. I have to say some good stuff first. The 4️⃣th brings the 9️⃣th anniversary of this blog and the 7️⃣th brings the 8️⃣th anniversary of my book: “ Spirit and Belief.” Follow all that? I’m getting very close to that 10 year mark with these writings so it’s a great goal I hope to honor. Thank you to any readers of both but that’s a great “ segway” if you will into a reviewer of my book. What do I always say? Big UGH and SIGH… 😫😕 I’m being nice here though.

Does anyone recall back in June when I wrote about a woman who read my book with glowing reviews? I was so overwhelmed by her words and shared some in that post. I will be sharing a few others today only the opposite. I received another email from her recently commenting how I did not write her back when in fact, yes, I did naturally. I do to all. I had NO IDEA she was with a publishing company at all and she did not ever state that. Here are a few words she used about me possibly being “ frustrated” with my book not performing well. She told me maybe I felt like “ burning my book!” WHAT??? Who tells an author that and about a book of my experiences no less? She went on to ask if I felt “ hopeless and like a loser…” Well, that isn’t going to make me want to pursue business with anyone. We do need thick skins but her possible kidding around did not sit well with me at all. I did refute those horrible comments and say how I would never tell anyone to burn a book, EVER… Also, it wasn’t my “dream” to be a published author as it just happened. Hopefully, I will not hear back but I did treasure her 1st email as I’m grateful she saw the deeper meanings behind my messages in the book.

Here’s a few more anger and frustration moments. A family member of mine had asked me to help them out with something as a personal favor but I said no. I’m getting better at that lately warriors. It was not a dire need. I had my reasons which probably were not acceptable to this person, but I know better. I wanted to see if I would hear back as other texts were pretty frequent between us. I did but they seemed to be less common as time went on. My plan worked as I did not reach out to inquire again. Yes we do text but not in an overly friendly way as before. I specifically stated because of my lifestyle, I will not be taken advantage of as I truly believe that is what happened. There were some positive comments but I sense a shift. Maybe it’s for the better so time will tell… 🤷🏻‍♀️

I also had a misunderstanding with my former hairdresser, and I will own a little of this. I was so upset how she was let go but never proceeded to tell me right away. I found out from my son and then the salon. He texted to make an appointment with her and she told him. I just thought she would personally tell ME after 7 years, but she did not. Bad assumption on my part but I expected more with us becoming friends. She has been referenced on here before. Other texts followed as I did apologize but my new girl is pretty awesome. I would’ve had to find someone new after we move anyway so I guess that lightened the blow. Still some anger and frustration though. The former even bought my book. She expected me to follow her but never shared where she was working. She lost 3 clients with my daughter too. 🤦🏻‍♀️

This last one concerns a friend who is part of an FB intuitive group we both belong to. I started a monthly zoom session with our group on various spiritual topics of interest. I did not have her as a co-leader as we did work on some previous projects together in the past. She does have more experience in certain areas than me but I know what would happen. She would take over and not be sharing duties, all indirectly~~~ of course. I did tell her as I am becoming more assertive which I need to be. Being a leader is something I have done but not with this group and it’s a great opportunity for me. I still feel she is a little resentful how I thought of this idea when she had not but that’s on her. She has led other groups so now it’s my turn. I hope it does not lead to more anger and frustration on my end but I will be honest if need be. She has complimented me and I will just focus on the positive. I have allowed her to do a few other exercises with the group but not on a regular basis.

So, warriors there’s my rant or venting post for today. I can list others but will leave it at those. Sorry for all the drama but I had to get it all out. There hadn’t been anything for such a long while and then like a rocketship 🚀 blasting off, I had all those clotheslines in a row! UW fans will know what I mean there. Hopefully, my anger and frustration will cease for a bit and I won’t feel like the face of Warrior below. ⬇️ Until new stuff surfaces with more UGH’s but for now, this match is over. I have to remember to go with the FLOW and BREATHE , which is what I will leave you all with today. I’m thinking a good post next week with less SIGH’s… 😣

P.S. Reciprocity is a weakness with me but we all are works in progress. I am a warrior through and through. I bet you all are too!

P.P.S. You can find my book: “ Spirit and Belief” wherever you get your books from. It’s out there on Amazon, Barnes & Noble, and all the others. It’s really my beginnings in all of this, but feel free to pick up your copy if you are so interested. I had to 🔌 plug it today because it did connect totally with this post. Enjoy readers! 💚📗✍🏻 Thank you!