Navigate a “ Numinous” November 💪🏻🤍🤼‍♂️

Now, you will see that “ Freedom Fighters” photo of a young Jim Hellwig~~~ Warrior who made up half of that tag team along with his partner Steve Borden~~~ Sting. This month of November has a few themes as you will see in the next several weeks of photos. I of course, in my alliteration fashion had to formulate some “N” words and after debating on a few, “ numinous” caught my eye. I know most aren’t familiar with it as I wasn’t either. Once reading, it fit perfectly for me and then that guy below. A few words to describe it are: “ sacred, spiritual, mysterious.” Yep, navigating that always but in this month of Thanksgiving approaching in my U.S.~~~ it works.

The first part of this post is a little update because that’s what I do. If any are wondering, here they are. I’ve not heard from Emir of “ The Masters of Wrestling/ “ Ultimate Truth” Podcast. I cohosted The Ultimate Truth podcast with him and included many links on here when we’d drop a new episode. I was following him briefly on some other socials but now, not so much. It seems he has started his own independent wrestling promotion so super busy with that along with still performing. The last episode we filmed was ironically about Warrior and Sting and on W’s bday~~~ how about that? All planned. I did however, do a little digging on my own. My concept I brought forth for him months ago was to find different guests for the show involving Warrior’s past. Not former wrestlers but those who had worked with W on other business ventures. He did have a few guys on BUT my suggestions were: ~~~ Zach Even-Esh, whose gym Warrior was part of in training guys back in NJ, ~~~someone who worked with W on the “ Firepower” movie, ~~~the kids from the “ I See Stars” rock band whom W helped “train” many years ago, and the man I actually contacted~~~ Jim Callahan, who did the art for W’s comic books. That’s right. I found his site and emailed him info over a month ago. He’s not responded but I have other ways if possible.

I will not continue my search if Emir does not contact me. Sure, it would be great to have any of those guests on but if he has moved onto other business, so be it. He’s not even acknowledged the podcast possibly ending, being on hiatus, or whatever. I’ve had some in my FB UW group ask about it too. We shall see but no extra work on my end if he has decided on other projects. So, that’s the news on the podcast as I hope you viewers enjoyed the content. After all, I just thought I’d be a guest one time so had no idea I would have followers in that way. It was a great experience… 🤷🏻‍♀️

The next update concerns my hairdresser friend’s possible book. Only one more appointment for her, so I’ll see if she brings it up at all. We did have a lengthy phone call recently but her life is very chaotic and seriously~~~ she hasn’t even started any type of manuscript at all. Just small jots in journals of experiences. I thought she was further along with asking me to ghost write for her but nope, not at all. She has read parts of my book but is crazy busy to finish it. *** Guess that’s why the whole process is so challenging for me. I would never buy a book if I had no intention of ever reading it. Yes, we ALL have lives but I don’t need to be patronized just because of a connection to somebody. If you really don’t think you’ll have time to read it, don’t buy it. It won’t hurt my feelings at all… *** I told her I can edit or be a collaborator but after hearing more about her personal life, I might just pass this up when the time comes. Plus, I don’t believe she would pay me what one should get paid. Some info I had no idea on at all and it’s CRAZY bat sh*t stuff friends. 😳Talk about family drama as it never seems to end for her. I don’t judge, just listen but then I got some “signs.” I decided to follow them and it felt good. Have you heard that expression of “ rejection is God’s protection?” You can take God out of it but I am slowly learning that to be true. She wants a shrink, not a friend I’m afraid. We all need to vent but it’s soooo much from her. Sure, we have tons in common spiritually and I love that connection but she contacts me to be negative, not to just chat and be friendly.

She was supposed to be at a yoga retreat I recently attended at the spa where she also works as a massage therapist. Her son got mysteriously ill and she told her boss she couldn’t help run it. I got a call from her detailing it all as I had texted sharing my excitement on seeing her for the event. I did explain later during our chat how I seem to be the initiator in many friendships as apologies abound but it’s a repetitive pattern I cannot keep doing. I do enjoy her company and giving her support but one sided relationships just don’t work for me anymore. It drains me. 😞 I get how everyone is “ BUSY” as we all define it but if you are a true friend, you make time for them and not out of a guilt obligation or just to complain. Sorry for the rant friends on here reading but I bet many of you can relate. I’ll see how it goes with her after the holidays but I’m not reaching out much like I did on her days off. She can contact me and if she doesn’t ~~~ well, I guess it’s another so be it. I am navigating a NEW November as well.

I will end with a funny as I’m so glad to add THIS to a frustrating post. I hope you laugh as I certainly did! The other night my husband was flipping TV stations and found this different wrestling channel, randomly. We watched a bit while making fun of the moves. No WWE or even AEW at all. He was dozing on the couch so now the remote was in my hands! I was done with that and found a cartoon channel. Ah… these local stations we never watch. It wasn’t Cartoon Network but did include Bugs Bunny and his friends. I “matched” that up with hey~~~ Saturday mornings of the WWF and my youngest sis who still watched cartoons then.

I watched a little while reminiscing fondly. It was then I saw the character of Mr. Magoo down in the corner. I immediately said to myself: “ Mr. Magoo, how are you?” Now comes the part you fans will love. Laughter once again, as I thought of that “ Brother Love” show segment on Superstars back in 1990 when UW was champ. He brought out a wig and dress for BL to put on and Vince’s laugh is the best! I rewind on my “ Always Believe” DVD just to hear him, it’s great. Anyways, as BL is putting it all on with UW’s help, Roddy Piper, (who was commentating with Vince) says: “ Mr. Magoo, how are you?” I totally have that memorized now. I laughed yet again thinking of that as Brother Love became Sister Love! I had to keep my laugh subsided so as to not wake my husband! Guess what then? The next cartoon they played was a Mr. Magoo one and I watched giggling the entire time. It was the comic relief of the night! Oh, wow, how I needed that. 😂😂😂

So warriors, how are you navigating this November? Will it be numinous? You can sub other words but I wanted one that would pop like UW always did when performing in the ring. Whatever this month brings, go with it but stay true to yourself. You might get frustrated or disappointed but make time for laughs too. Those are the moments to remember most. Maybe near the end of this year brings endings which seem to happen. They may not be endings like mine but you’ll have some am sure in your own way.

Warrior had to end many relationships or ideas in his life but he always moved on to other things because that is how we learn to navigate my readers. Perhaps something didn’t or isn’t going the way you’d like but find a moment or two just to let it be and laugh if you can. You never know, you just might discover a numinous perspective as well through it all. You could be guided towards another concept or even just a time to relax. Watch some cartoons! I know for me~~~ that worked and tag teamed well with my WWF memories. Many of those made me laugh too, but some, ummmm… not so much! We all don’t do life the same and that is super hard to know when another doesn’t agree. Do your best and just remember that we all matter. We aren’t wrong in wanting something or someone a certain way but then need to realize it just may not be the match we win. We can’t possibly change the situation but we can always change our response in how we handle it better for the future. I will focus on navigating my own numinous November in ways that work for me.

P.S. ***FRIENDSHIPS….. not everyone approaches them like me as acceptance is the winner in that bout. I would never dismiss someone or even overburden. We ALL need advice and genuine connections, despite the BUSY every day from everyone… it takes a few seconds to check in with someone instead of doom scrolling. It’s all priorities though… We all work but I think you can get my point here…

P.P.S. Oh, I could’ve used a pic of “ Sister Love” but nope, ha ha! 💃

Three Count of Dreams 💪🏻

Well, warriors- I had said more dreams were coming so gear up for a three count today. I don’t think I’ve ever given a preview of the next post and yet here we are. This all came to me most recently and I believe they were in the same night. Guess it was time for a three count and it gets more detailed as they move on. They also seem to connect with Warrior’s life more so than mine but I take it all in. Let’s start with dream number one.

No idea where I was in this dream but in front of me was a large box of Ultimate Warrior merchandise. Most may know I have a small collection but nothing like this massive collection. There was so much good stuff in there but I vividly remember picking up the exact mask from Warrior’s final appearance on WWE’s RAW April 7, 2014. The whole crowd wore those as did Warrior which made me pause. This mask is in the book: “A Life Lived Forever.” I got that out a long time ago and the strap broke. It was a PS once for a post. I wasn’t meant to wear it. I held it for a bit and then continued on looking at action figures, magazines, belts, and so much more. I was alone but no recollection of this belonging to someone in particular or if it was part of a store. Hmmm… That was it but very cool to see all that great U.W. merch in one place.

The second dream was a little more detailed. This one occurred in the living room of my childhood home. I was there watching our old console T.V. which I can totally picture. Warrior was starring in a movie similar to “Conan the Barbarian.” Yes, fans know he was “The Swordsman” from “Firepower” but he had said years ago how continuing the Arnold Conan series was of interest to him. As I was watching this unnamed movie, there was a close-up of Warrior with his blonde hair and he was in shackles. He obviously had been captured and was being tortured- oh no! There was a woman nearby but I couldn’t tell if she was hurting or helping him. She looked similar to the actress Nora Lum who goes by the name Awkwafina. Can you picture it? I so hope there was a good ending but in this dream , that was the only seen I saw. I can imagine Warrior in a role very similar so I thank him for coming even if it was through my old T.V. set.

The last dream of course was the most detailed. I hope you can follow along and again- these are my observations and instincts. It’s how I connect the dots so I just go with my first thought and don’t question. OK, now that I’ve set you up, here we go. This one was outdoors and I felt it to be during a frat party in college. I was in someone’s backyard at night as there were lights all around like a summer BBQ. The yard was filled with people, tables of food, drinks, music playing, dancing and just lots of fun. Yeah, it seemed like college kids but very tame! Warrior did attend Indiana State for one year and he looked very young in this dream. It might’ve come about as I had watched an old clip of him and Steve Borden- a.k.a. Sting. I have seen this before with those early Freedom Fighter days in Memphis but watched it again. It’s a clip were Phil Hickerson (whom I wasn’t familiar with) comes up to Jim and Steve and mocks them for just being muscles with no talent. Steve says nothing but Jim challenges Phil to a match. The photo above was from that video. You can look up how that gets played out but imagine Jim’s look then. His hair was just a little longer. That’s similar to his look in the dream.

Here’s another funny connector. Jim had a friend in this dream– no not Steve! But immediately I thought of the show “The Middle.” That comedy aired on ABC for 10 years and the oldest boy went to East Indiana State for college. He had a close buddy on the show. “The Middle” took place in the state of Indiana so Jim and his friend to me in this dream were like Axl and Hutch from “The Middle.” I watched the show and loved it all those years.

I hope you are still with me here… I was walking through the backyard crowd carrying a plate of food for Jim and his friend who were in a tent nearby. I thought later on why I would be doing this?! Get your own food guys! Anyway, the plate contained fried rice and green grapes. Huh? Oh well, that’s what they were getting. I can’t fully connect the grapes but the rice was a real life similarity. My husband and I had recently gone out to dinner at a Mexican restaurant. One of his sides was fried rice and he made a point of showing me the peas which I’m not too fond of. I don’t mind them in pods but I’ve never really liked them, even as a baby. I guess those peas on that plate of fried rice made their way onto another plate in this dream. Crazy! Our real lives matter too. The grapes didn’t factor into my real life but they did in this dream. It was a cute moment but the rice story is funnier so I decided to share that instead. 😂🤭

I brought the guys their rice and grapes and we chatted a bit in this tent. No clue on Jim’s nameless, faceless friend but it was interesting. Was it really a frat party at Indiana State? Who knows but I sensed it that way and thought of “The Middle.” I had never had a dream of Warrior that young but guess I got a little glimpse into a college scene. Next time, they can get their own food, ha ha! I’ll probably laugh when I see fried rice and green grapes again. 😜

So, I hope I amused you all this time around since the last few weeks have been quite heavy and emotional. I like to find the humor even with some editing at times which I need to do. Who can tell what’s next but I’ll be here to share. I wish you all good dreams as always. You may not get a three count like mine but never stop believing in your own warrior power— minus rice and grapes!😴3️⃣☺️

P.S. I recently made a *NEW* youtube video on some really funny stories that happened with my kids after Warrior passed! You can find it here or go to my channel for more goodies on him or spirituality. (: It’s 10:38 in length and all about those Kid Warrior-isms!

https://youtu.be/1BBKPgUr0zM

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