As this very confusing month for me continued on, there were many odd things happening and April of 2014 was quite complex to say the least!
I remember it being very hot which is unusual weather for April in Ohio. After school, the kids wanted to go in the sprinkler and I had to turn on the A/C! With them outside, I decided to watch t.v. which I never do at around 4:30 p.m. The movie Titanic was on which I believe they show every year in April around the anniversary. Anyway, the ship had just hit the iceberg– perfect huh… I got hooked watching and realized it was getting time to start dinner. I can’t believe I was watching this movie considering that epic song and words, what timing….
I went to the kitchen and decided to get this corningware dish I rarely use but couldn’t reach so grabbed a chair. While getting the dish, the lid slipped out of my hand, crashed to the floor and broke everywhere!
I just stared realizing what had happened and then opened the window calling the kids to bring me my flip-flops. I jumped on the counter to avoid the glass. As I was cleaning I said how I’d never seen something so shattered in my life before. I immediately thought of my emotions being shattered when hearing about the loss of Warrior. I also thought of Dana and the girls. This metaphor describes how they must’ve felt.
We did finish watching Titanic and it was a little history lesson for my kids. Even though that song is so emotional and haunting, I actually got out my Celine Dion CD of greatest hits and blasted “My Heart will Go on” while singing at the top of my lungs! Who does that?? Guess I needed to let something out.
I can still hear the character of Rose telling Jack how she’ll never let go and with my spiritual connection to Warrior, in some ways I can’t either. Also, I am reminded of this very odd day every time I open my cupboard and see that corningware dish without its matching lid. The heart does go on in its OWN time and way…. 🛳⚓️