Do you strive for perfection? Does it frustrate you when things are not perfect? The photo above looks so perfect to me after my hair was highlighted. That isn’t my “real” look, other selfies will prove that. 😉 I’ve discussed this topic briefly but wanted to explore a little deeper. Warrior wanted perfection in many areas of his life. Some days, I want to scream at him and then some I say: “I get it…”
I’ve never really explored ME and perfectionism. You see, it’s kinda easier talking about someone else but when it’s yourself, that’s tricky… I am a Virgo so being organized is my thing but there’s another challenge. A big issue with me that I have in common like Warrior is body image. O.K.— obviously NOT in the same way but remember, feelings are.
All three of my siblings had the same body type when they were younger and then there was me. I was never that heavy but they were all smaller than my size. Boys metabolism is different than girls but I struggled with weight issues often. I wasn’t necessarily jealous of other girls since being a size 0 is not a number to me.
I even worked out with my best friend at age 12 the wrong way just to lose weight. Now, I have these faded stretch marks that aren’t from birthing babies. Slimfast became part of my life for a few years in high school in beyond. It’s great and worked but the truth is, I didn’t really need it. Plus, it hurt some of my heavier friends that felt intimidated and threatened. Ahhh, girls…
Now, it is much different for me with healthier food choices, a workout of cardio and yoga, and feeling good FIRST. I can’t do a headstand but I can rock push-ups!! It isn’t the number on a scale anymore. Maybe being different then got me thinking more like a warrior. She was always there. I just had to find her. I did get some help later on from the Ultimate one! 🙏🏻💙
Being in a body conscious profession is much different but hey, even “Mr. Perfect” wasn’t perfect! Warrior lived his whole life with that body molded the way he wanted. The truth is– that shouldn’t and doesn’t define us. When I’d watch certain parts of The Ultimate Collection DVD, I would cringe when Warrior discusses perfectionism. He had to go back eating tuna fish and water since having THAT body is what people would remember about his character and “that’s what they were going to get.” I still shake my head in disbelief. Sure, it’s right there in front but his body is never what this warrior girl would remember— EVER. Alright, the teen girl yes, the real me, no. We are all more than bodies.
I always wanted to ask Warrior if he was satisfied with his body. Was it ever enough? Maybe it never was for him. There’s a line in the movie “Welcome to Marwen” that says: “Pain is our rocket fuel.” I paid attention to that and right away thought of Warrior. Perhaps that’s true for some.
I also want to know about why he didn’t get Hulk Hogan “all the way up” in WMVI. I mean, were his elbows bent a quarter inch? He said he “can’t sit with anybody…” Am sure he’d sit with me by now and explain all of it. I would love to hear his side. He even admitted that maybe shaking the ropes on his final RAW appearance was too much. Even then he was still his own worst critic. We all are.
It isn’t just fitness that propels perfection. It can be any area of your life really. Personally or professionally. What is it like for you? Being perfect is non- existent and yet we strive for this in many ways everyday. Sure, sometimes when things line up we feel a huge sense of accomplishment but there is so much more to ourselves, so much more. Often times, body issues tend to reflect girls and women but it does affect boys and men too.
It all depends on your mindset and self-esteem. I thought people would notice me more once I lost weight. Well, they did but at that time it was for others, not me. I hate to use the word “obsession” since it depends on your situation. You can push to exhaustion but is it truly the right way to go? I know Warrior had no regrets but perhaps now as a spirit, he is evolving another way without his physical self.
The pressure is enormous and we put way too much of it on ourselves. You can be fit, healthy, and active but is it worth the pain for you? Maybe it is, that’s your answer to figure out. I always admired Warrior without judging him as we all have mindsets filled with our own perfection.
I cry, scream, maybe laugh, and then just reflect. More and more I try my best to understand Warrior’s “point” of perfection and all the whys. Yours can be big or small but just know life is deeper. We are perfect in better ways and it isn’t our body that needs to to be all the time. I believe we need to accept ourselves more. It can be enough that day even if yesterday wasn’t.
I saw so many other qualities of Warrior besides his character. He wasn’t perfect. I am not either, none of us are in life. My “point” isn’t perfection. It’s respect. Then. Now. Always…….💖👏🏻💪🏻
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