energy – mywarriorwritings.com

Just Buggin’ Ya! 🪰🐞

No, not really as I hope you aren’t being bugged or bothered by these writings. Just here bringing a weekly update, you know like on “ Saturday Night Live” only not on the weekend! Before all this bug stuff~~~ a few other updates for you all today. My husband and I had our 23rd anniversary on Sunday and ate dinner in this Aviator themed restaurant close to the airport. We had not seen the entire place since it was renamed and is used much for large gatherings or a wedding venue. Not sure how long it has been since we actually made a reservation somewhere. I can get him classy once in a while! ***👔👗 Our son is almost ready to start year 4️⃣ at college with band camp this week. He will be a few floors up in his apartment complex with some of his trombone buddies. Our daughter begins year 2️⃣ soon locally as it’s still crazy having both in college.

Onto WWE for a moment as recent news came through the media. Starting in January ‘26, all their PLE’s (or previously called PPV’s) like WM’s, will be airing on ESPN. I know, so many letters! 😜 At first I thought~~~ wow, totally awesome as most have that sports channel until I heard the catch. It isn’t exactly like the Netflix deal with RAW, nope. I was told by guys on the podcast one has to download the DTC app or Direct to Consumer in order to view. No regular ESPN or even ESPN+. I’m not sure of all the details as of yet as it’s almost $30 and not part of your cable subscription. It might be cheaper if you have Disney or Hulu as well. We have neither but I’m not interested. Just a messenger here… Interesting 5 year deal in the billions so we shall see how it all transpires or even if all the info I received was correct.

OK, phew that’s kind of confusing I know. I’m not bugging you, am I? Let’s get to that topic of choice today as I found it ultimately cool with all the feels. Did you ever have that feeling of a bug crawling on you but there isn’t one? Maybe not but I do, at least lately. Then, I’d go and brush away “nothing” all over my arms and legs similar to when I get goosebumps. This has been happening and I must say sometimes~~~ it’s around where my UW tattoo is located on my right forearm. It’s not always but sometimes. Is it Warrior’s energy? Possibly considering the physicality of his mask as I will and do believe. Other areas though can be a tingling sensation of feeling as this time of year has heightened spiritual vibes coming through. You may not follow this, but I do and recognize specific signs for me. One can question validity for sure, I get it… One can also go to the negative and jump to a possible medical problem. I don’t and won’t do that because I truly know in my heart that is not the case.

Do any remember the ladybug post where I saw one in my son’s room during the winter and then on my bed the next day? You may see those tiny creatures often and not think a thing but I love them and always have. Yes, Warrior has a connection with one of his daughters as I recall, but they have fascinated me since childhood. One day I felt a bug crawling near my ankle and this time without automatically wiping it away, I reached down to catch it~~~ also without looking at the bug. I decided to save its life and ran to the door setting it free. No idea it was indeed a beautiful ladybug visiting me and not just a random housefly. It’s rare when that happens but thankfully, she was safe and my hand didn’t crush her. I thanked her as she flew off and from now on, I will look before capturing.

The feeling is more like a slight brushing on the hairs of my skin but now instead of rubbing it off~~~ as there are no bugs, I invite them in. I believe for me it has more purpose, more meaning on this evolution of mine so it’s a newer type of sign. Imagine if you can~~~ someone’s fingers, (not in a creepy way) walking ever so slightly and lightly in a gentle way up and down your arm or leg. It’s a positive feeling. I never looked at it as panic but at first more of a nuisance. I believe it now to be more activated with my sense of feeling or clairsentience. That is discussed in my book- “ Spirit and Belief.” I have to plug it sometimes, right? 📗 Perfect opportunity to do so. I hope this isn’t bugging you with all my spiritual talk, but it’s my life readers so take what works for you and leave the rest.

Maybe new things are coming my way as I need to think so as my spiritual team always has my back. No tingling in that area, but they are with me just like yours is with you~~~ whether once she chooses to truly connect or not. No worries, just protection as unseen forces are guiding us in everyday life. *** Well, no more buggies for today, but try and notice little things getting your attention sometimes. If it FEELS right for you, who cares what others think. You might be nervous at first but think positively as that is what you will get. I love my signs, but I’m open to new. Warrior was all about staying motivated so he wants that for all of us here too. He can bug me anytime as I promise to recognize his energy any chance I get…

P.S. Here’s the ladybug 🐞 story for any interested: http://www.mywarriorwritings.com/my-ultimate-ladybug-story/

*** written 3/3/21…. 🥰 ignore the website stuff at the end, that is no longer active…

***Also, if wanting book info: you can find it on Amazon or wherever you get 📚… It details my beginnings with wrestling, following UW, and how his energy brought out more of my intuitive gifts. Lots of humor, family stories, and spirituality as well! It’s a quick read and totally easy to follow along… I thank you for the support.., 🤍💪🏻🙋🏻‍♀️

Calm Before the Storm 🙏🏻⛈️

I’m going to start off today with a few little things before getting into the blog. I hope all you readers are doing well as these many holidays are fast approaching near the end of the year. A quick honorary mention needs to be written about last week concerning the post on redemption and revenge. I cannot believe I left out WMVII. After all, had it not been for the “Macho King’s” interference with his scepter, UW might’ve still been the champ. I know, I know it was all planned~~~ but loyal readers may recall my post where I discussed that 1991 Royal Rumble against Sergeant Slaughter. It was called “ The Stories We Tell” on 7/19/23. Sarge told a little different story as that became a rant of mine! Anyways, UW got his revenge with a win at that Career Ending Retirement Match. Redemption for sure. ☺️

The next topic is yet again about a pic. The one below today is just a random shot, but I left my blinds in the background. I could’ve used my other DVD player to avoid the blinds but decided to keep it in as is. I think it’s funny and I am not an editing queen!*** Well, now that those two convos are over, I’ll move on. Did you ever just feel like it’s the calm before the storm? How about if your metaphoric plate was full, got emptied, and then super full again. Yep, that’s me right now. I guess life is like that but why is it always like 1 million things on that plate? 😩

I’ve been feeling under the weather lately and so has my family. I’m actually not overwhelming myself with holiday shopping that much but other things creep their way in and remain for a while. I do like to stay busy but then more stuff gets added to the plate, which makes me scream! UGH!!! My daughter has decided to change colleges in order to commute and go locally. So, we need to get her car before the semester begins mid January. At least the kids won’t be rivals anymore. She just isn’t happy but in a few years after we move, she’ll resume her studies where she started and get her degree. I thought she may last the entire year there, but it isn’t meant to be. *** Before that, I do hope for positive vibes as we are hosting Thanksgiving this year and she needs the other family support. We also have visitors that haven’t been here in years~~~ my sister’s family, who recently moved back here in the summer. They were here for the graduation party but not inside for a holiday. The calm before the storm indeed…

We will be going to my niece’s wedding the week before Christmas in Tennessee that my husband and I will be attending. I haven’t seen some of my brothers kids in years so I’m looking forward to those reunions. Again, though~~~ some can cause drama so I can only hope it all goes well. I am slowly taking off from the plate, piece by piece. My girl also gets her wisdom teeth out over winter break, 🦷 my son starts a new job that he’s super excited about, and my mom will be turning 80 Christmas Eve. I will definitely need some calm after those events.

Phew, let’s talk about a wrestling career. I know the guys had little calm or downtime as their plates were always full. It was just their lifestyles which they chose for themselves. Sometimes, it takes years before any of them~~~ like Warrior would be able to enjoy a much less full plate 🍽️ and less of a storm if you will. I do better with a few things at a time or my anxiety goes into overdrive. It’s this time of year but also other family stuff called life. I love much about the Holidays but the people you spend your time with matters. Sometimes, it’s a struggle but I tell myself that I do enough and that’s it. We have to be ourselves whether others agree or not. Warrior was all about that for sure and it’s something I need to remember always, no matter what is happening around me.

I also get affected by cosmic energies, whether any of you readers understand that or not. My shifts are happening and it’s all for the good but that is why I seek the energy work. I feel lots deeply and need to remember as well to not give my energy away to just anybody. It isn’t healthy for my systems. You might be confused by this and that’s OK. Just know it is part of my journey and one I need to keep healing. I had the calm, but then another storm started brewing…

Our plates will never be completely empty all the time warriors and that’s how it’s supposed to be. We do need to find the balance though or our bodies and minds will tell us. Sit with it for a bit as I’ve said before and I’m doing that too. We have to believe all will work out for us and have that intuition to know it’s true. What do you do when things seem to overwhelm or your plate is overflowing? I hope you can find the calm despite some storms possibly coming on the horizon. Be the warrior you were meant to be, which is to fight with all that you have~~~ always.

Even if it’s just for a few moments, get a little time to calm and declutter that plate. There will be storms, but it’s all in how we handle it, right? I am grateful Warrior finally found his calm which is what he truly needed, we all do. Do what you can and know it’s enough, even with this busy or chaotic holiday season. Stand your ground and tackle that plate one day at a time. Tell your mind that it’s OK to be calm and it will eventually listen. Get that warrior strength and never let it go. It will stay with you through all of life storms…

P.S. Here’s my ‘91 Royal Rumble Rant!

http://www.mywarriorwritings.com/the-stories-we-tell/ 😳😬🤔

Warrior Tattoo, part ♊️💪🏻💚

***I have not used the word Warrior in a title since January…

Here we go again with yet another part two, only this time years later. I’m using the Astro symbol for Gemini ⬆️ since we are in that season. That zodiac sign belong to Warrior but it also belongs to my daughter who gets mentioned frequently on here. Before all that, I do have to apologize for the photo below. I look like a contortionist of sorts! It was the only way I could fit my warrior tattoo in the pic with me taking it alone. The reason it gets another mention today is a 2 count. It is the 10th anniversary of when I got it along with my girl who turns 18. Yes, today is her 18th birthday which means 10 years ago~~~ she turned 8. So, besides April— we get another 10th in May. What a milestone it is for both… 🥳🍰

I will share some quotes from the story in my book: “Spirit and Belief.” It’s rare how it gets a plug anymore and that’s OK but you can find it on Amazon, Barnes and Noble, iTunes, my publisher~~~ Balboa Press, and wherever you find books if you are a reader or interested. It’s my baby book of sorts. ( My phone typed “swords” 🗡️as I almost kept that in since Warrior was “The Swordsman” character in the movie “Firepower.” Too funny! 🤭 The book shows the beginnings of the warrior journey I am on. I have written and experienced SO MUCH since then but it’s a fun, interesting, emotional, short read of my adventures. Here are some snippets from “My Warrior Tattoo” chapter 23:

” I had two concerns about doing this and they were quite valid for me. First, I didn’t want it to be a sad reminder just because he passed and second, the aftermath of explaining its meaning to those who won’t understand.”

Yep, still true today– both statements. Here’s another: ” I must admit that the hardest part for me was not getting the tattoo but telling the artists who the Ultimate Warrior was.” *** One guy knew but others did not. I already had one and then a few years later I got a third. I’ll stick to a three count.

A fun one here about that zodiac sign (which was a post done years back all about Virgos – me- and Geminis : ” This girl is also a Gemini like Warrior was and her traits are extremely similar it often blows my mind.” *** Funny how back then I vaguely followed astrology but I looked up a few things. Now, I follow it a little more closely but it’s only part of my practices. Here’s a little lovey: “Maybe I was meant to get that tattoo on her birthday as a special reminder I will never forget. I did tell her what the tattoo means to me and who it was in honor of. She thinks it’s cool and points to it with no words. I know exactly what she means.”

*** That was powerful for me to write and some of you may remember a story quite sometime back when I recalled my 3 tattoos with her. It was titled: ” We Are Never Done.” She doesn’t totally remember that time of 10 years ago, but still respects her mom for having the courage to incorporate his legacy. My brother then had reminded me between my 3 tattoos, it is 6 years. Yep, that number was ever present back in those early days but it still makes an appearance from time to time.

Well, those are just some of the goodies of many emotional beautiful feelings from me. My girl made me laugh back then as I needed it the most when she accidentally saw it on my arm! How is she 18? She had the senior prom a few weeks ago and looked so stunning in her dress while having a fabulous time with her friends🥰👗. She just also marched in her final Memorial Day parade with the band just the other day🪈❤️🤍💙🇺🇸 and now graduation is tomorrow night 👩🏻‍🎓. I know I’ll be all “business” but hearing “Pomp and Circumstance” still gets me choked up. 🥹🥲Believe it or not, I just watched Warrior’s tribute to Randy on my saved videos last week. I actually was just scrolling and then remembered how he passed in May so how fitting to have found that. 3 years later, Warrior would join him… ***If you are or were a fan of them both, find that video. I’ve linked it before but it is a wonderful tribute to “The Macho Man.” I imagine it as his induction speech into the WWE HOF instead of the one he actually got. I digress yet again… 😑

How is it June this weekend? I knew May would fly by and we need a breather. You’ll be reading a few more posts from me and then I’ll be breaking for a brief trip back to Michigan. We went there after my son graduated but this time, a different area. Until then, look for a few other NEWER pics from me that I have not ever used. It’s another part of Warrior’s career I had yet explored and now, I can. You’ll have to keep reading to find out! I am ready for swims in the pool, 🏊 BBQ’s 😎☀️, sitting by the fire, 🔥 and all the summer feels. We have a busy couple of months with prepping a new college kid, but as always~~~I will breathe through it all. The to do list does become shorter and shorter every day.

I wish you all a happy June as we say goodbye to May… Hard to believe we as a family will no longer be associated with a school district. Just like I usually say- some stuff I’ll miss but others I won’t. New beginnings are tough as we all know but can also be exciting. My son will be moving into an apartment for his third year at college this fall. That will be quite an adjustment having them both gone for a bit but we need to evolve like life has to be. I will treasure all the moments and take them in the best I can. You need to do the same no matter what they are. Take breaks when needed and find a quiet time just for you. We all need it despite the crazy. After our vacation, I will be prepping more for her graduation party. It seems like I just did that~~ two years went by in the blink of an eye. I still see the word FLOW so that is how I have to be. 🙂‍↕️🌊

Happy 10th to my tattoo, even though that sounds silly. It isn’t to me because it gets shared with my girl’s birthday for the rest of my life here. I will also complete her photo wall collage with adding the last one. Very bittersweet🙂‍↔️ it will be, but I have my Warrior strength always~~~ especially when looking at my forearm. Two celebrations in one day and both I will never forget. Oh those Geminis, how can I possibly ever not feel their energy? Both part of me in different ways and forever pieces of my heart.💙💖

P.S. To all you fans of U.W. ~~~ Yes, I finally *** DID*** have several more emotional moments last month. The floodgates opened but not in the same way. It was more little things that have happened in these 10 years. We will never forget but need to keep being our OWN warrior. Channel that inner Gemini with all its expressions of embracing life!

To Become Educated 🌺🫵🏻💡

A few things to say before I SPLASH into our post today. First, it was a year ago this past month that I have owned the “Always Believe” DVD. I know it was after Valentine’s Day, but before March. Lots of content I became a little more educated upon since receiving it 12 months ago. Also, tomorrow marks a Leap Year which is not too common. I have a cousin born on February 29 and he is having a milestone this year. I guess technically not with a Leap Year being every 4️⃣ years! HBD to him for sure. One more point and it is this. The photo you see below is yet another wonderful one from my beautiful cousin who thinks to send me such sweet inspiration. 🥰 I had another picture chosen (as usual,) but when thinking of what to share~~~ it had to be her sentiment today.

Yeah, it totally fits with me but I hope you the reader feel it too. The previous time I used a picture she sent it was 2 years ago in March, which I looked up. That was just ONE word all about “My Warrior Week.” This today, however, is just about an hour or so. What I mean is the recent session with my healer which is around an hour I spend with her. Again, this might be over some of your heads about seeing someone to balance or HEAL your energy as it does relate to psychic abilities somewhat. She relates messages through angels and boy, have I become so much more educated. It will be 3 years in a few weeks that I started seeing her and I went quite frequently. Remember my colonoscopy? Then, visits became more sporadic as I’ve stated because I wanted to try my best without additional guidance. As it turns out, we are into a whole other time and topic, so more visits are in order. 🤔

I usually jot down a few notes to take with me and the very last question I had concerned DREAMS as she and I explore this at times. It was just a brief comment that turned into most of the session. Many may know I have been and continue to be the avid vivid dreamer. If you’ve been with me, you’ve read ***MANY*** over the years concerning Warrior but there are always others and I wanted any info on some different ones. Do any of you remember my tree, house, and crystal one? That was so upsetting as to why Warrior didn’t recognize me. 🫤 I DID become very educated as later on with her (and the angels guidance,) I applied it to that dream. I did write how it was a metaphor and there were always more lessons to learn as I was right. It’s great to have insight as those answers are just for me. 💙😴 Such another puzzle like last week…

My question to her concerned his girls in some dreams, as one I felt to be a little unsettling. Now- mind you, she is not an official dream interpreter but if this connects to my healing, some answers do come. No, it was not FULLY explained as I believe we all are connected in some way. What was explained is just like things in our waking life, not everything is how it appears to be. I felt reassured on that ***BUT*** most ALL of my dreams are quite beautiful with a few hmmm… ones snuck in from time to time. The thing with me though is energy which I know sounds very broad.

When we dream, we can be anyone, go anywhere, and do anything quite like acting. Sometimes we might wake up dazed and confused or like we haven’t slept much at all. 😵‍💫 This can happen to any of us, but not as often as one might think. She tells me I have a big heart( awww shucks… ❤️) just like on Earth but that means it’s fair game. I’m giving away too much of myself causing “extra” energy in dreams to interfere which I don’t need. Don’t get me wrong, the wonderful Warrior dreams and ones with others I am fond of are all so great as I wake up happy and refreshed. The other confusing ones though, not so much. For my entire life, this has been a huge part of me and would become a joke like : ” guess who was in my dream last and what they did?” I never thought of it any other way besides it being my “thing” and just accepted what was. The truth though with my big heart~~~ I just wanted to do all these things, be everywhere, and go go go in a dream that is. What happened was it became exhausting and draining which is not what I need in order to heal. There are MUCH more details of course but I’m telling you, I’m so grateful to be educated a lot more on this. Dreamland will slowly overtime work more to my advantage…

I will admit at first when hearing this news, it was quite shocking as I got totally defensive. Once I settled down with it for a bit, it became clearer and I had steps to take in order to course correct. I even said to her that I didn’t want to fully fall asleep and became a little panicked. 🫨 She said to not do this as that depletes more of my energy and of course isn’t healthy. It was just my first reaction and was temporary. I’m stronger than I know but sometimes forget that. One of my purposes here is to be ME like it is for us all but some like myself need to fight harder and be the warrior we are to take care of OUR needs. It’s all about the feels, remember? My crystals will work too, as a few other suggestions were made.

Becoming educated takes a lot more out of us than just reading books, listening to podcasts, or watching videos. It’s using your OWN sense of intuition to lead YOU in the right direction. Warrior spoke of this often. To think it all started just because I jotted down a simple dream question. 😜 You may not work with a healer like me, but I need this for my growth and many areas much too numerous to list here. Become educated warriors~ however it looks to you. After all, Warrior did and now I am. Dreams or not~~~ keep YOUR energy close. Don’t give it away unnecessarily. It’s yours to keep, just yours.. 🙏🏻😇👊🏻

P.S. NOT all dreams are roller coasters 🎢 of WHEEE!!!!! Maybe I need to adopt Warrior’s attitude and kick some A**!!!

Disappointment Builds Resilience… 😔💪🏻🩷

THANK YOU all again as I recently noticed a few *** NEW***subscribers, which brings the number into a whole other group of numbers. Nice to see but authentically I know it’s lower and that’s OK. I’m not disappointed. More on that… 😬

February… We are getting closer to Spring in my part of the world warriors so let’s send good vibes for warmer weather. I said how I’d be using selfies more so that one down below is showing off my Always Believe birthday sweatshirt given to me back in September. I loved taking some pics in it then and that photo is actually my icon for this blog. I had yet to use it on here though. It was a beautiful yet unexpected gift from a friend and like all my U. W. memories, I treasure it dearly. 🥰🥹🤗

Yes, memories. I’ve mentioned that word plenty and I don’t want to bring everyone down for this month of LOVE but things happen we all need to face in some way. I want to look to the positive so hence the title. We’ve all been disappointed, right? Of course we have but it’s how we’ve become resilient enough while facing it that counts the most. I didn’t want to get into the recent scandal over at WWE now, but it hurt me differently than some others. My emotions got the better of me and I thought later on about my MANY posts over the years. I wanted to delete several and eliminate a certain name mentioned, but then thought about memories. They are mine just like with all of you.

Despite some frustration, my writing remains what it is as I stand by each and every one. It is with fondness that I reflect back and remember the good, like you read from me often. We can be naïve or turn a blind eye to possible disappointment but sooner or later~ it’s there in many forms. Just think about YOUR life for a moment. We can move forward more easily if an action is perhaps momentary or a temporary lapse in judgment, we’ve all been there. How about if it’s ongoing where we may ignore but then it becomes repetitive? We also might not have all the facts but certain behaviors can persist. *** When younger, you could’ve been disappointed in not getting that toy you wanted for your birthday. *** There are always reasons as to why not but when adults, the emotion goes deeper. I’ve been betrayed by many throughout my life as Warrior will attest but as we age, we become more educated and want more answers.

Resilience needs to come, and does come from even the smallest of losses that will eventually over time turn into bigger ones. I’m not saying it’s all gloom and doom~~~ of course not, but we need to know better techniques in dealing with letdowns besides: “this is how it is, oh well, it happens…” or similar childish responses we receive when little ( or even NOW…) I have learned plenty along the way like we all should but sometimes there’s still that lingering word of HOPE.

Do you still support those who disappoint you in any way? I believe many do and myself included to a degree. It does depend on several factors and one person does not influence our decisions, at least they shouldn’t. Others come into the equation as well and there are always GOOD people who try their best. Even I disappoint at times, but I know to change behavior. Some won’t, or perhaps cannot. Again, to those who cannot~~~ I can only feel sorry that someway, somehow, they choose to never improve. 😓 Most folks are inherently good, it’s their choices and actions that are not. We become disappointed because we CARE.

No matter what happens to any of us, there will always be those times that will continue to shock — even though we may anticipate something brewing. We know no person is perfect, no business is perfect, no relationships are perfect. We only see the surface but getting past the deflatedness means we rise up once again. Some hurts stay with us longer than we want, even not getting that elusive toy as a kid. We can’t ignore or dismiss as there will always be another story behind the action. It’s what we choose to believe. Whatever your choices ~ to feel bad, or let it go, just think clearly as to your WHY. Like I said, we will always have the good to go back to. Don’t let the disappoint make your warrior resilience tap out. I know I won’t…

We try for HOPE in spite of that situation, which became upsetting.

Every time I’d hear of a new project Warrior was working on outside of WWE, (how remains a mystery… ? 🤔) my first thought was negativity of disappoint. That would SO upset me. Why? Because his reputation precluded many ideas into becoming fruition at times. I would think: ” uh-oh, they will say he’s difficult, abrasive, or unworkable.” Choose your own words. I HATED the fact that because of his past, it could influence his future business as sometimes it did. I wanted to be so excited for him, and part of me was but the bitter taste back then with WWE came along for the ride. He did rise above it all and became resilient in lieu of any outcomes. I always rooted for him to still do things his way but creatively, projects did get pinned to the mat. Those that did get brought to life were so very important to him and he always had fans support, in other ways outside of wrestling. Not everything is what it seems behind the scenes as we all know but I was overjoyed Warrior could mend those fences before he left us. Some may not get that chance ~ and for them, I am sad. 💔

Maybe we should just accept to be disappointed by some because of their nature. After all, I for one have never put anyone on a pedestal- including Warrior. That’s in my book… Where do we draw the line and say enough already?! Those ropes were shaken by Warrior to draw strength from us and now WE need that strength to be resilient through him because we are HERE…

P.S. I will admit~~~ WWE gave me yet another topic this week. We can apply this post to so many other areas though. Disappointment will never go away and our feelings won’t either. Choose what is worth spending your energy on. Trust your gut. That’s what a warrior needs to do. Always believe in THAT like my sweatshirt says… 💚

A-HA! “Now I Know…” 💡🤔

Yeah, those moments happen where we reach a point in realizing THAT needed to be part of our lives in order to move forward. “Now, I Know!” was spoken by the Ultimate Warrior during his WMVII match with “Macho King” Randy Savage. He was talking to those gods above while using his hands, deciding whether to leave the ring or stay and battle. I’ve used photos from that match before. The A-HA part isn’t referencing the 80’s group that sings “Take on Me” although I hear that song often. 🤭

These expressions can reference many things, both bad or good all based on how you use it. My photo below was taken from U.W’s very last match in the WWF (E) against Owen Hart. Did he know that would be it with the company? Probably because of comments made about his contract, but I can’t be certain. Again, like I’ve said before~ if he never had left, he never would’ve seen what else was beyond his time in the ring back then. Warrior had that moment am sure of then KNOWING it was the right thing to do. I’m certain though he had plenty of those A-HA moments throughout his life too just like we all do.

I know I mentioned in my P. S. last week of remembering that date being October 29. Yes, it was the U.S. release of 2K 14 in 2013 BUT it was also the date of a spiritual heart opening experience I have detailed before back in 2019, 6 years later. I’m not getting into all that again but a week after, I saw my psychic friend who explained much from an energy perspective. Both were without a doubt A-HA’s for me but not until later on did I connect those energetics dots of my DNA. Those “Now I Know” times began a NEW (cue “The FINK!”) ultimate journey for me in such profound ways which brought my constant OMG’s quite often. Unfortunately, some experiences needed medical attention but NO doctor found anything wrong with my heart, ever. OK, a few years later, I did have an ulcer but its origin was not medically or physically related which is another ““Now I Know” memory. I’ve had a few sources give validation, but it was all my own intuition which guided the feelings all along. 🥹😳💙

I’m not saying you need or will have times like mine as you won’t but think real hard for those stoppages that bring pause to your life. It does not have to be a negative or even bad experience at all although those periods bring the good eventually our way. I’m also not referring to those life milestones we all have in our lives beginning in infancy. You know what I mean like childhood stuff well into adulthood of family life, work, relationships, homes, etc. What I mean are much deeper than the daily movement of stages. How about a person who has impacted your life in ways that forever changed you and will never be forgotten? Yes, folks I have them besides Warrior because he is in a class by himself. I have mentioned my former book club leader, my spiritual cousin, the owner of a spiritual shop, and even other teachers along the way. A favorite yoga instructor comes to mind too. A few men have given me those moments also- not to worry… some boys from childhood as well… Maybe you don’t have a group of people as mine are a select few, but perhaps it is on another level for you. I always have my music and some songs will forever be those A-HA ones always. There’s movies, books, vacations, and so many other recollections of never feeling the same about it ever again. It’s kind of like the first time with situations we will rarely face the exact way and yet continue on seeking new adventures.

A person might have given you sound advice about an area of your life and you will forever be influenced. Think of those types of circumstances you have been in that are much deeper than getting married, having a baby, owning a home, having that dream job, dream house, ( no, not Barbie…) and all that. This kind of thinking involves so much more from us but truly try as I bet you can. Make it more heart centered. Warrior had mentioned people who influenced him with their words whether knowing them personally or not. He also had talked about places he loved and outside interests which sparked A-HA thoughts he turned into action.

We actually both have a Linda in common. He had Linda McMahon bringing him back to WWF (E) in 1996 and then inducting him into the HOF. All of those years culminated in a “Now I Know” memory. At least I like to think of it and her that way. You can have your own POV about his other “Mom.”

My Linda was a child fitness instructor who had a local mini TV show. I worked with her at some of my preschools before the day began in the early 90s. It was just a short half hour exercise program for the kids and oh, what fun! She eventually went national with her “KinderKicks” routine and it suited her. After my Grandpa passed, she was the only “work person” I could relate to. He was my first big family’s loss. I was still a teen, and those other women (with good intentions I know) just rubbed me the wrong way in handling my grief. We never know the right words to say after someone has passed and they meant well, but Linda showed me such empathy that I’ve never forgotten, 32 years later. I’m not even sure anymore what she said but it was all in the HOW. I wanted to crawl in her lap and just BE… That’s an A-HA moment for sure, despite the initial sadness. They all could’ve been my mothers, but Linda treated me as an equal.

It’s THOSE people, moments, memories, convos, music, movies, or anything else that becomes your A-HA times of saying ” Now I Know.” You won’t be talking to your hands am sure, or even singing “Take on Me” but tap into the deeper spaces of your heart that make you FEEL without thinking too much. I just thought of my Linda too as she wasn’t even considered with the original notes. That’s just how it works warriors. Find your A-HA pauses. They are there if you really remember. Then, you will KNOW…

P.S. Oh, I thought of SO many more for me. There was yoga, meditation, crystals (of last week,) and a ton of others! Think of your own. No, not all mine are of a “spiritual” nature… It’s just what we need to do. All in divine timing that aligns perfectly for you. 🤍

*** Now, I’m singing A-HA’s song in my head!!!! 🎼🎧🎤

Never Play Small 🫵🏻💪🏻🏋🏻‍♀️

I am sure you’ve heard of that saying above as Warrior would 100% agree. Yes, I know he writes about 1994 there on the side and a memory I have is from 1993 (I think?) but that’s in a bit. I must admit, I used to place small but not so much anymore. Why? Because it doesn’t lead you anywhere except to frustration and disappointment all centered around expectations. It’s kind of like how back in the day, some would never ask for directions if physically lost while driving or something like that. Now, we have Siri but I’m sure you all can relate. I can be quite stubborn but nowadays, I ask for help because it sometimes is necessary. If it pertains to the kids, I’ll ask questions if need be instead of struggling on my own. Nope, not playing small on most topics anymore.

Let’s talk birthdays a moment. Maybe you celebrate yours in a grandiose fashion but maybe you’re more low-key. When younger, it’s all controlled by your parents or maybe older siblings help to plan a party. Once in school, did you tell friends when your birthday was? I did but we all have to let go of any possible outcomes. Just because you tell someone, they may not get you anything except telling you : “Happy Birthday!” 🎂 How about as adults in a workplace? My husband hates the attention which I can understand but we all deserve to be celebrated and not just as kids or on milestones. I’ve had a few fun surprises over the years (and still do 🤭) from others but in a workplace is different. A few coworkers of mine brought a beautiful lunch one year just for me, which was in 1993 that I mentioned earlier. One had asked if I liked chicken salad~~~ very random?! It totally floored me as I had no idea. I have never forgotten that… At another job, we used to do birthday lunches where everyone contributed. It was so fun, but then I never wanted to work the afternoon class!! Was that playing small? Nope, because if you don’t share, nobody ever knows. Some prefer it that way but to me, it gets lonely. We deserve that special attention but can’t expect it..

I have played small when younger like I said but other times it affects us differently. It isn’t just speaking up or sharing but also acting. Always playing small will never increase confidence as Warrior came to know many times in his life. He didn’t even play small alone doing his workouts! If he never walked into that weight room back in high school, Coach Pate never would’ve seen his potential which went from small to BIG… That of course led to so many other opportunities career wise for him and with Vince McMahon~~~ NEVER small either! I’m so grateful he had mentioned those in his HOF speech who motivated him to keep going and to not play it small. He never forgot them but we shouldn’t forget those in our lives too who motivate us for similar reasons. 🥹🔥

We all have those down days or even moments, but then something snaps us back when another picks us up. No, I don’t mean a press slam! Those who truly care will know the right thing to say or do when we think we aren’t making a difference. On my spiritual journey, there’s been several people who saw, and still see my potential and despite some humility always, I don’t play small with unworthiness. OK, I don’t go out there and do book projects anymore but I am still doing what I love~ just in another ways. I’ll have those “Ms. Resistance” times and then I’ll get a message full of compliments that I wasn’t expecting. Sure, I can always go BIGGER in many areas but there are ideas I prefer to stay smaller . Does it mean I shy away all together though? No and it shouldn’t for you either. What are some ideas or projects you might be playing small upon? Maybe you can just amp them up a little if you like. We all deserve our own praise. even if others disagree.

Lately, I’ve had people reach out to me for various reasons that I wasn’t anticipating. I even got asked to go on a retreat with my former book club ladies. I couldn’t attend, but so nice to be included and feel special. They could’ve just invited the current group but thought of the others they begin with. That’s not playing small fellow warriors…. Some friends take pics of my kids with their bands and not because they have to but because we have gotten close and they enjoy doing it. The lengths they go to get the right shot just for us parents is no small feat indeed~~~ at least sometimes. I even get sent some from extra parents which is so sweet. I have returned the favor because I am a proud mom too. 🥰📷🎼

How about those 80s wrestling podcast guys I have referenced? If you’ve heard them, they certainly have included me with their mostly regular male callers. Talk about a BIG deal. Nothing small about that and I can run with the big boys anytime! *****Switching my gear over to the feminine, my cousin doesn’t hold back when sharing spiritual topics with me either that she can’t share with anyone else. I certainly don’t restrict by being small around her as well. We won’t be small when it’s with those we truly care for and vice versa. Sometimes, I might over share but it’s only because I trust the other and feel myself enough to be ME… That includes humorous antics too as very few experience that side of myself. When I’m goofy, I’m not playing small and those select few just know my vibe! 😜You have people like that too, I know you do. I bet they let their guard down and don’t play small with you either.

Just because stuff is the best because we can celebrate friendship without there being a big celebration of sorts. It’s those real ones who ask how you are despite their own chaotic life and don’t mince words. Some of us love BIG but it isn’t because we’re clingy, it’s because we are genuine and the real deals. Playing small just kept us that way and then we’d never evolve into the big hearts we want to give without expectation. I’ve been there~ I know, but this girl doesn’t place small because there’s no winning that match. You can do you, I will do me. Let’s just agree that some things are worth playing big for. You get to choose which ones. Look to Warrior. He knew too… 💙

P.S. Guess what? No P.S. this week! It’s been a long time for that… 😉

My Energetic Downloads🪐

Hey there, warriors! How is everyone doing during this last week of July? I hope you are all well and as always, thank you for finding this blog, reading, liking, following, or engaging in any way as it truly means so much to me. ☺️

Before jumping off the ropes for today’s topic, I’ll share why I chose that photo you see of the Ultimate Warrior below. One of his first big-name opponents was the Mighty Hercules whom I referenced before but not in a long time and that was all about mythology. While trying to choose a promo pic, it was this one or another but this one’s date was 6/5/88 while the other was 6/25/88. Both dates I have written about as the 25th was Warrior’s last match in Spain of ’08 plus the wedding anniversary dates of some in my family. From ’88-’08~ 20 years for Warrior on that one. I decided on the 5th and here’s why… * If any of you recall, I shared a P. S. several weeks back that included a dream I had on June 5 of this year. That date is one of my Grandma’s birthdays and she happened to be my godmother as well. She however, was not in the dream but my Grandpa and Dad were. I had to get in the house as the Ultimate Warrior was planning to host SNL that night, huh? I still cannot imagine… 🤭😳 Very interesting how it was her b-day but she was not present. So, I used that photo because of a more personal connection to me and I pushed aside the 6/25 promo. Oh, the 6/5 title is “Normal People” and the 6/25 title is “I won’t let you down.” Yeah, those fit. Now, onto changing the gear bag for the next match.

I’ll preface the more “serious” subject by just bringing a little funny your way. It amused me (some of it) so I hope it does for you too. A few weeks ago, I was walking my dog in one of our favorite areas and we had just headed out. Right before me on the sidewalk was a HUGE hawk 🪶 . I haven’t seen one in such a long while as I just marveled at its beauty. Maybe you don’t but this was a great find and I held onto it the entire time. I’m not a pocket person on these walks as things fall out, blow away, and all that so my hands need to be ready. Picture it: (a.k.a. Sophia from “The Golden Girls”!) me holding the dog leash, my keys, wallet, phone, and now a big hawk feather. Don’t get me started when it’s winter and I am wearing gloves! 😜🧤 It works until the dog poops. I’m always a sight to behold for sure. I step on the leash and put all my stuff down. A few times I walked away without an item! I am more careful nowadays. Of course, with my husband he hands me the leash which is so convenient but very different alone, ha ha. All was going well until almost at the end of our walk.

It was then how I saw another hawk feather, only smaller. As much as I LOVED finding 2, oh man~ how could I carry all this? That day was also when I saw my Energy Healer so how beautiful receiving two hawk feathers which is my spirit animal. At least I have had moments to know this. That began my idea for this energetics downloads topic today. Yes, I always have many but lately, it’s been more to think through. Oh, I did get a 3 count. A Bluejay feather was sticking straight up in the grass like they have before shortly after receiving the hawk ones. 🥰

Those of us with heightened sensitivities need to be extra careful and you may not be one as I am. It’s little things but sometimes we need some extra guidance bringing these to the surface. I can tell when I’m sluggish, depleted, or just a little more aware to what’s going on. It can be a full moon but lots of other cosmic stuff too. Planets in retrograde, yes. Did I used to? Nope or at least I would have no idea. Little did I know how all these electronic upgrades affect me internally. I had a kit recommended to me that I’m still debating upon but guess my systems go a little “bonkers” sometimes. We all have cell phones that are 5G, high speed internet, microwaves, and many other things. The kit will benefit with the EMF’s always everywhere too. It was even told to me how I need to put my phone on speaker when talking as too much “static” gets in my system energetically which is causing much interference. That’s OK, I’m not much of a phone talking kind of girl anyways but this is news to me. I am reminded of Linda McMahon’s HOF induction of Warrior. She mentioned putting him on speaker a few times back in the day… 😉 It does help to explain some oddities so I will follow these suggestions to help myself. This kit will also get me more grounded after dreaming as like I’ve said other times, I wake up exhausted from all that “traveling.” 🥱😴

More spiritual downloads there all the time as our planet🌎 is constantly flooded with new technology, systems, and info, so for empaths it can be super hard processing. Everything is extremely fast paced so bodies have a difficult time managing. At least I have more answers now and can move forward knowing while still deciding. A part of me knows I am sensitive and have accepted much but then the other part freaks out thinking “I am this BAD to need so much extra help?” What’s a girl to do but just continue being the warrior I am with celestial guidance at my side.

Recently, I came across this author who was featured on a spiritual podcast so I decided going to the library to find one of her books was a must. This one is all about our Astro signs and the planets. You may not care about this energetics download, but it truly makes sense to me. It has been quite the fascinating exercise finding out more about my natal chart and you can too. I’ll link a website and her book at the end for any interested. The traits are amazing and if you pursue a little of astrology, you might find some answers too. I have talked about my Virgo and Warrior’s Gemini before but there’s so much more. You can even compare others charts like close people in your life to see similarities. We are all connected and it is for a divine purpose. You can research on your own but it’s been helpful to me ever since my daughter was in 1st grade. Only until a few years back did I start exploring it again. Energetics downloads? Absolutely. However you find or notice yours, just know there are answers if you truly always believe. Feathers, dreams, healing work, books, and all of those are downloads for me. I can’t forget my music ever! Love that too. 😊

P.S. To any out there who FEEL these energies~~~ you are not nuts and are not alone…. ❤️‍🩹

P.P.S. Here is the website to get your *FREE* Astro natal chart if interested. You need your D.O.B., place of birth, time, ( if you don’t know this, you won’t get one of the signs but you will still get others,) and your first name of course.

www.astro.com

* Look for the free astrology chart. You can only enter 2 names until starting over. If this link isn’t accessible here, just Google and you should find it that way… good luck!

* “Use Your Planets Wisely” by Dr. Jennifer Freed. It lists all 3 signs we have PLUS the planets at the time of your birth (: Super cool! ✨☄️💥🌊

The Space to BE… 🤲🏻💙🤗

Are you a hugger? Maybe not but this idea was sorta swirling around for a bit so I am bringing it to our writing arena today. It’s also been an emotional time lately for me so this seems fitting. My sister from Washington and her family came for a brief visit to mourn a past loved one of my brother-in-law’s. My niece and great niece also came and I had such fun seeing that lil’ baby of hers. Everybody hugs or does a similar greeting as I am a hugger. OK, not as much as I used to be as they are given out quite selectively anymore. We all need space to be and some of us need a breather.

Warrior’s last few days involved many hugs, handshakes, pats on the back, and all that. Some do those same type of hugs with a few pats on the back but I would tease those who do. I know, I know~ it’s just how they do it or who they are but sometimes it just, I dunno- doesn’t feel genuine. They might mean well but it feels obligatory. If I give that to another, it isn’t my typical sentiment. You will know a real hug when or if you receive one from me. If it’s someone I truly CARE about and they mean much to someone I know, it will be different. It does depend for sure and just because you have a title like certain family members, you still may just get a small one.

I even know people who come at me way across the room with arms open like it’s expected. I do reciprocate, but it’s one of those side hugs with a brief pat. Again, that’s just them but it isn’t nor should it be all of us. Don’t you wish (at least I do) that those real moments of authenticity can be treasured more? Just being in the moment with another who means a great deal and giving each the space to be can become truly rewarding. I have often imagined greeting in a way where time seems to stop and no other sounds can be heard. You embrace a person who returns your affection and there are no words. Just that close interaction is enough to share for that brief time. I’m not trying to be sad or even mushy here, but really think about this if you can.

We always speak or say those “how are ya?” statements or anything similar but we don’t take the time to allow the space of receiving and just be… My Grandpa gave those giant bear hugs to many and he truly meant it. All us kids still talk about them today. Several years later, of course “bearhugs” meant something entirely different to me besides my Grandpa! His involved no submission though, but did involve space to be. I don’t know of anyone else who gave those out but we felt that love and connection which isn’t there with some who hug differently. He even hugged me that way in a dream back then. 😴

I remember when I first saw my energy healer a few years ago now. After our very first session, I was so emotional and reached out to hug her afterwards. She rebuked and said how that isn’t what she does because of the residual energy. Practitioners need to clear that and well, I do too. It’s not good or bad, but just another space that has to be set free if you will. I did email her apologizing for I had no idea but she wasn’t upset at all. She has a gift, and it can become draining on many levels. I totally understood when she explained more and yes, we ALL have energy everywhere. I’m now a little more reserved with who I share or give to. It’s not healthy to keep another’s energy so I am learning always. You can feel differently of course but I am affected so care needs to be taken.

If you’re not a hugger, that’s OK but any gesture of good intention should be valued or at least meant by both. We do get caught up in so many moments with people and what is expected that we often forgot to be us during those times. I’m not saying to be overdramatic but as with many other topics, society shouldn’t dictate our actions. Warrior knew all about that. 😉 There are those times I would go to in my mind and heart about what I would say or do when meeting Warrior years ago or even those last few of his life. I have said this before but now, I would love that space to be and look him in the eyes to say what I tell myself often:“I get it.” Don’t worry, I would not be a stalker as some of you could be thinking. I just know what I know.

I understand because I do and I know he would appreciate that. I always would want to say so much, but would only say a few heartfelt words like:“Thank you Warrior” as so many chanted at his Hall of Fame. But, that isn’t meant to be physically~ only spiritually now. However you initiate or respond to another’s gesture, just make sure it is genuine although we will still feel that obligatory pull. It just won’t be the same as it once was or with someone else. Relationships might come and go or be close then not but you get to decide. Give them space, but also allow yourself to have it as well. It can be difficult when we are not on the same page when it comes to different forms of affection. I do hope you can both come to some sort of agreement despite a possible awkward situation. I’ve been there with many but sometimes, you can just ask. When you are in alignment it is beautiful and you will feel it in the most profound ways. 🤍🥹

So, my wish is that with your sentiments, perhaps you can give or be allowed space to just be with another for a time longer than that brief pat or quick handshake. If it isn’t part of your perception, no biggie but it is for me. I am trying but again, it is with those select few deserving that bring me joy into this stage of my life. I give you space to feel and just be with the ones who matter most. I get it…

P.S. I DO know most guys give that pat on the back hug often. You will know if it is truly authentic or not… Warrior, Vince, and Triple H? You bet…

P.P.S. Just like before, once I decide on a title~ I start to see a word everywhere. The word SPACE was in a meditation called: ” holding space” AND- while listening to a podcast on this Animal Communicator- he says to:” hold space for your pet…” Really. I can’t make this up people! 🫶🏻🥰👍

Loosen Your Grip 🫴🏻💙🥹

Here we are in May warriors. This year is “running” by fast, isn’t it? You haven’t heard from me during this month since 2021. I took all of May off last year. A few posts of that time were about a dream with Dana and the Ultimate Warrior biography. Hard to believe that was 2 years ago, but we need to be in the now. When I thought of this title~ I thought of a song. Come on, it’s been a while since I’ve mentioned one! Loosen your Grip could also be like “Hold on Loosely” by 38 Special. Yeah, I hear that one a bunch. We keep holding on but never let go. That can be hard, don’t ya think? I guess literally I should’ve loosened my grip years ago from yardwork. I still have some callouses on my hands with those times past of raking leaves and shoveling snow! I’ve eased up on that manual labor as well as my workouts. Can I still do them all the way I used to? You bet I can but let’s just say the pains last longer nowadays. Yes, it makes us stronger but injuries aren’t what they were to my body in the past.

The idea of loosening up some came to me over the course of many months and a brief dream does connect. We’ll get to that in a bit. Most fans know of those many emotional dates in April connected to Warrior~ great, good, and bad but despite my own personal memories of those times, it lessens. I can recall any of them in a split second but the grip is softer now. Never forgotten and never gone but not as intense as before. Don’t worry, Warrior’s intense energy is still very much there 💥 and always will be but in new and different ways. That’s a good thing. Sometimes the waves are strong but other times they roll in much more calmly. I still get those “shaking ropes” of OMG but they are more controlled and relaxed now. It’s not like an old pair of shoes that seem worn out but more like a warm blanket embracing me at the right times. Same emotion, less grip. I’ve been through those heart palpitating moments that once were so scary (for real!) but now it’s endearing times of comfortableness.

We do need to let that extreme grip open up just a little to face what’s next. If you hold on so tight, you’ll never move ahead. It can be frightening warriors but if we don’t, our evolution in this lifetime becomes stalled and nobody wants that. Life will flow so much more your way if you release a little of whatever it is and experience something new. Your happiness becomes more of your purpose if you help to contribute to that great life you deserve to have. We all do. I have struggled in so much but by releasing control of my ever so present grip, it enabled the struggle to dissipate just enough so other great moments could enter. Warrior wants that for ALL of you too. It’s OK to hold onto an idea, project, person, or anything close to our hearts but not where you forget to be YOU and not the grip. I know for me, it’s such a challenge when I want that exact thing to remain constant and yet it never does. My kids didn’t stay little either as they never do. I’ve had to loosen my grip on them but I’m liking these new young adults in my life. See, it’s all OK…

Warrior loosened the grip on some areas in his life but we all know how he needed to in WWE (F) so other ideas could manifest… Here’s a little part of a dream I had which explains the photo below. I have plenty of other pics but it had to be from that 1992 interview before SummerSlam. That outfit he wore was so colorful, it must’ve stuck out for a reason since he had that on in this dream! It took place in a park and I had known him quite a while, since his days of bodybuilding I guess. That seems to be common lately but it’s so nice to get. 🥰 I was waiting for him and he shows up dressed like that from a taping of Superstars! I teased him saying if he’s recognized, he only has himself to blame. 😂 He laughed replying how he didn’t feel like changing but no face paint. I had lunch for us but he proceeds to put his leg up on a park bench very contemplative as we talked first.

He told me ( again- this was July 1992) how he felt the need to leave WWF. Fans can recall how he left in November but this dream depicted it differently. He was becoming frustrated with how things were going and decided to stay until the end of the year only. The grip was starting to loosen once again as it had in the past with wrestling. Warrior wanted to try new things and move on to a different type of career path. That’s exactly what he did end up doing only not from a park bench (: Other goals crossed his mind among personal ones as well and we both shared aspirations. I traveled as part of my career but now was pretty stable so he asked me questions about what I wanted more out of life. We did share some laughs as possible “what if’s” came into view and it was good to imagine while creating the new. I believe we did finally eat lunch but like with most other dreams, no true ending. That is well and good as life needs to be open without always definitive answers. It was a beautiful day outside in this park with blue sky and my favorite white cumulus clouds. 🌤️ No idea on if he was spotted as the Ultimate Warrior or not, but such a reflective dream. Nothing too over the top but now presented in a deeper more meaningful way.

Loosen your grip just a smidge and see what happens. I’m not asking you to freefall if you don’t want to but some of you might! If you hold on too tight, nothing else can ever get in. I know you want that grip on many things but you will know in your heart when it becomes too tight and those callouses form. Like 38 Special sang about: ” Just hold on loosely, but don’t let go. If you cling too tightly, you’re gonna lose control.” Now, I’m singing it! Don’t lose control but know the grip will still be there. It’ll just be more softer as not everything has to be restrictive where you feel suffocated metaphorically. It all won’t go as planned so release the HOW… Relax into yourself as even warriors should. Warrior’s energy I will always grip but not so much where I lose my OWN… 🙏🏻💪🏻🫵🏻

P.S. The series finale of “The Goldbergs” airs tonight on ABC after 10 seasons. I only started watching after my brother told me how they were doing a tribute to the Ultimate Warrior at the end of season 1. So glad I did watch and continued to do so… Many times did I reference this show… “The Cut-out” I blogged 9/29/21. This connected to my favorite episode ever about the boy band N’Sync. Not what you think though!

*** I also blogged “My Pouchie Faith” on 6/13/18 all about George Michael’s song “Faith” and Dana… For some reason, I can’t link them but feel free to read for nostalgia , I did!!!

P.P.S. Many of you have inquired about: http://www.ultimatewarrior.com

~ It seems to have been taken down once again but perhaps might be revamped? I have referenced it many times in the past but am not sure of its status now… If it is no longer available, my apologies but we have memories in other ways… 🤷🏻‍♀️💔