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The Sci-Fi Cyborg 💪🏻🤖

He’s back! Welcome to August dear readers. How is this school month already for most? Crazy… The “he” I am referring to is about that title above. Yep, the sci-fi cyborg but before that, here’s a little something I noticed. Like I said~~~ I do not watch WWE but here lately I did watch SmackDown and a little of RAW. I had to see the Hulk Hogan tributes as I sure hope they have a separate special on him. With everything he did for the business, he does deserve more than the traditional 10 Bell 🛎️ tribute and a few clips shown. I know they also did a tribute for him this past “SummerSlam” as well. Perhaps that will be it? 🤷🏻‍♀️ The beginning of the shows when they announce their: “ Then, Now, Forever, Together” slogan, many wrestlers are pictured. Ultimate Warrior is part of “ forever.” Many may know this. I love that but yes, they all are forever to me~~~ every generation.

Do any recall “ The Wandering Tent Dream” a few years back? I saw a movie playing that featured Warrior in the starring role as a cyborg. It was science fiction and I totally KNEW in that dream how that was the second movie he made. He was only in “ Firepower” but at the time, a second was in preproduction. There’s a reason I bring this as a topic today. Another dream I had only this time, it was just a photo shown to me~~~ that’s it. The photo? Well, it was one in my “ Wrestle America” magazine from 1993 with Warrior on the cover. The black-and-white pic is him sitting behind a camera on the set of the movie. I have used it on here years ago and he looked so happy. He truly was… That’s all I wanted for him and actually said that to the magazine in the store back then. It was kinda intense but totally makes sense now. 😌

After seeing that photo in my dream (or mind’s eye???) , it got me thinking. Why was I “randomly” shown that? I couldn’t answer for a bit but then as usual, it came to me. I had to go back and reread that article by Dave Rosenbaum to check on a few things. Here’s a quote: “ Don Boyle, who conceived ‘The Six Million Dollar Man’ for TV, wrote a science- fiction movie script with the Warrior in the starring role.” How about THAT readers? I have read this multiple times over these decades but NEVER put it together with the “dream movie” of a few years ago. Warrior left ICM before that project could happen. I would not have remembered the sci- fi connection between that magazine article and my cyborg dream. Ok, maybe he would not have been that way or perhaps the plot couldn’t be exactly the same BUT still a total connection. The photo of Warrior on the “Firepower” set inspired me to think, reread the article, and remember my dream. How truly ultimate…

Here’s another interesting connector. Because of the nature of Warrior’s spirituality, I often wondered later on if he ever explored some of the other aspects that are not religious. I know he was philosophical but how did he navigate through all this higher learning? He was self educated but like previously stated, it came from somewhere, right? Years ago, when this began for me~~~ I pondered if he meditated or looked into other ways of tapping into one’s Higher Self. It is similar to praying. I do both. Meditating = listening, whereas praying = talking. He had to I’m sure. I actually asked that question to some in different forums once. Their answer was all about his fitness. “ He meditated thru his workouts.” OK, that’s a fair statement to say BUT here is where that same article works. Granted, this was from 1993 and not many years after when his life became busier with a family. I hope he still had time to meditate maybe but just in a new way and not just through his intense workouts. Here’s another from the magazine: “ … and isn’t ashamed to admit the beautiful Arizona scenery sometimes causes him to meditate.” That of course was when he was living in AZ alone but it’s there in black and white. Times changed obviously but I am glad to have known that about Warrior. Thanks to the Ultimate one for leading me back towards that “ Wrestle America” piece on Warrior’s life after his longest reign in the WWF.

So, the sci-fi cyborg almost started working on a second movie that is explained a little in that article which I had sort of forgotten. He also meditated back then as many in his later years he considered friends might not have known. Perhaps he discussed little with them on these subjects but I have evidence and a dream to prove otherwise. Some might have that article too. No bragging, just honesty like always. One last thing to end with as it concerns writing so I have to share. A woman I follow on YouTube is an energy practitioner who specializes in healing your nervous system and stress responses. We all need this! Her work is amazing and it’s truly helped me. The reason I reference here is a few other quotes from her work and I echo these sentiments. I hope all of you do too. She states: “ I stand by everything I create. It’s always the best I have to offer at any given moment. Because sometimes the most powerful thing isn’t finding the right answer, it’s returning to the work… and seeing it with new eyes.” ~~~ Sukie Baxter

We won’t have all the answers but do our best in our own way…

Isn’t that powerful? 😮I think it totally fits today because I was seeing the magazine through new eyes 👀 and always standing by what I create. Hopefully you can see Warrior through new eyes too. 🥹It’s the best I can give with these writings. Feel the same about what you give out to this world. It doesn’t have to be writing, dreaming (like me) or even reading. Just do with your whole heart because it’s what we are. My favorite sci-fi cyborg did too, meditating along the way.

*** P.S. Go and listen to “ 80’s wrestling the podcast” with their latest episode, a tribute to Hulk Hogan. I call in around the 42 min. mark. I hope you enjoy… I was very emotional and almost didn’t call in. Am glad I did… ❤️💛

Oh, those Stimulants..

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Before my adrenaline filled post today, I will recall briefly the last event of 11 years ago which was WWE’s RAW tribute to Ultimate Warrior on April 14. Ah, yes… My family playing “ Clue Jr.” and then hiding my tears 😭 in the bathroom… 💔 The song fit perfectly but grateful for the humor my husband provided back then.

OK, warriors- now onto these stimulants with a few of my own personal stories mixed in. First off though to any wondering~ NO, this is NOT about steroids or any recreational drugs many of the guys partook in. My take is the more understanding yet comical way, (like myself) of bringing in how easy it is to rely on stimulants in any form. Like I’ve said before, until you are in a certain position with certain situations~~~ you truly can’t judge until in those boots (as a pro wrestler that is.)

Here are my two stimulants~~coffee and alcohol. Sure, mixing things is not a good recipe as caffeine alone can be enough. We all know as fans guys did many things, (including the few women involved) and even though they would’ve known some side effects, wrestlers did what they could or felt needed to be done to be a star. Also, it provided coping mechanisms they felt were necessary.

Despite contributing to some not too healthy decisions, who doesn’t love some of Randy’s promos about coffee. “ A cup of coffee in the big time!” ☕️How about : “ cream of the crop!” Look those up with Mean Gene, how can you not laugh? 😂 Warrior knew Randy loved his coffee too, but that does impact lack of sleep. I won’t get into all that because we know it, don’t we? I used to be more of a coffee drinker but not so much these days. It started when I was teaching but I only drank it on the weekends! Guess I wasn’t into buying instant then and we didn’t have a pot at my childhood home. My husband had a pot years ago but it’s put away. No Keurig either. I truly didn’t need it but after my son started Kindergarten with that much earlier time, I took it up again.

I will say this, though. Nowadays, I rarely have caffeine. It actually keeps me awake at night despite only having a cup in the morning! No soda pop with caffeine much either. Judge if you may, but my system does not want it and it shows. Once in a while, I crave it and boy~ one can tell. I get a little jittery, have more energy, and my heart rate increases. 😳 My body can’t take too much of all that as others can. I will go get myself an iced coffee at McDonald’s on occasion with a little sugar and milk, not black. No fancy overpriced Starbucks, ha ha! I love it and get this~~~ I get a medium because a small isn’t worth it. Plus, I only drink half and save the rest for day 2️⃣ . Call me a freak, I don’t care. No flavors either. I used to get vanilla or even caramel but way too sweet for me in the A.M. That’s dessert, not coffee. You all can have your espresso or even mocha latte, but not me. I have tried several, but chocolate coffee?, Um… no.

How about those libations many of us love as well? I also don’t partake in that often because of- you guessed it, my sensitive system anymore. When my husband and I were dating, I could drink 3️⃣ Long Island iced teas while hanging out at BW’3’s… I would probably pass out or vomit now. I do still LOVE the fruity and tropical drinks of flavored margaritas, daiquiris, piña coladas, and even martinis like cosmos. 🍸 Wine is OK but after one glass~~~ watch out. So many stories but honestly, I was never a drunken girl~ I knew better. Yes, we’ve all been there but I can count on one hand those times for me. I even tried hard liquor at a work party just to check that off a list. Nope, never again. I’m not a beer drinker at all either. 🍺 Here’s a funny story of mine as I did admire my dedication.

I decided a few years back to not have any alcoholic drinks for an entire year. Nothing but clean stuff. It was a challenge as I did love those Mike’s hard lemonades from our corner store. I did it warriors despite holidays, birthdays, or anniversaries. My husband and I go out for a date night and I ordered a fun, mixed cocktail. We had dinner and headed to the movies. I was fine until about halfway through the movie. Oh no, what was this? My stomach was a mess. I didn’t wanna go to the bathroom and miss an important part. Well, thank goodness it passed but my body hadn’t a drop for 12 or so months and I fill it with mixes. Oh, Kathy~~~ wine would’ve been better to ease back in, but I did not do that. I bet my insides were thinking: “ what is she doing?” “ We thought she was done with this?”

*** Right at THIS very moment as I kid you not warriors~ those 2 expressions totally connect with my relationship to Warrior after his return of 11 years ago or even wayyy back. I assure you that was not in my original post! I totally even crack myself up sometimes. 😂😂😂

All kidding aside, it is so easy for many to become addicted to stimulants that can be mild even compared to others. I have family members who have battled and even a sister who fought against alcohol many years. We all have choices and it’s up to us with our free will to decide how far we can take it. I hope all you proceed with caution in this area and know your limits in spite of some temporary “good feelings.” It affects us all and not just pro athletes like those wrestlers we come to love. Warrior abstained from some stimulants, but then others~~~not so much. I will not condemn or condone, just bring compassion. ❤️‍🩹

P.S. Hope you enjoyed my stories as I bet you have some too!

P.P.S. Go look up Randy Savage on YouTube about coffee. You will “ dig it!” And~ happy WM41 weekend to any that will be watching. I might write a little about it, but not sure. Also, if any of you celebrate Easter~~ I wish you all a joyous holiday weekend as well. 🌷🐣🐰

“ I Will Always…” 💙

“ I will Always…” Those 3 words just like many others are so very powerful indeed. We just had the 11th anniversary of Ultimate Warrior’s final television appearance on WWE’s RAW and then yesterday with his passing. I did light some candles as per my tradition. 🕯️🕯️🕯️ This date is the actual day I found out which like my many other memories, has been shared. Surprisingly to you readers, (as it was a little to me then) was the fact that I did not shed any tears for the longest time. Often written here is a metaphor of me as a volcano, 🌋 just waiting for its time to erupt. Some that may know me quite possibly assume I am that extreme basket case which I am not at all. Emotion doesn’t just pour out of me like a faucet of joy and pain. Nope, it doesn’t. 😭 I bet when people are faced with shocking news of any kind, it may take a while for it to sink in. If it involves some type of physicality which we could be present for, we need to take immediate action of course. Hearing about Warrior passing didn’t involve me taking any action of that matter. It just had to penetrate through me for a time until I was ready to erupt, in my own way.

“ I will Always…” Well, what can that mean as it becomes very broad? I will not echo Dana’s words of those years ago but for me, they do hold true in other aspects. These are just my expressions of today as I truly had no notes prepared. I can easily list several clichés following “ I will Always” as many fans will have their own. Yes, the Dolly Parton and then Whitney Houston very famous song I can mention here, but isn’t truly necessary. BTW~~~ Dolly ended her 80s variety show with that song as I watched it back then. Most know Whitney took it a whole other level with a huge movie titled “ The Bodyguard.” Another yes here as I did have it on cassette tape. I loved ballads and still due to this day. We are nearing the anniversary also of the Titanic sinking as I think way back to my memory with a certain Céline Dion song from that movie. You all know I love music and singing… 🎵 🎤That story is in my book…

“ I will Always…” identify with this number of 11 as it’s super powerful spiritually. You may not, and that’s OK but if it fits on my warrior journey that I’m honored to be part of. Always will I keep my memories of Warrior tucked in my heart as you can do the same. It started at 15 for me with many years, then some gaps until coming front and center once again albeit a little differently in form. I had him re-emerge for me in 1999 and then 2005 through his website. No idea as time went on of any social media or sites at all. It wasn’t until hearing about his possible HOF induction near the end of 2013 did he “run” back in with me never being the same again.

“ I will Always…” honor him but I need to honor myself too. He wants that for everyone, no matter a fan or not. The ways we choose will vary greatly but they need to be done because honoring our true selves is a big part of our purpose here. Sometimes I marvel at everything that has transpired since finding out he left his earthly life. I’m not overly sad or mad (last year of 10 made that evolve more) but filled with my warrior spirit of handling ALL of it. Just knowing I’m strong enough when sometimes, I honestly didn’t think I was. Humor has saved me numerous times as I will always honor that as well. After all, that was the “main event” with WWF when I started watching, and it has continued with Warrior in spirit. Some of these writings are proof of that as I bet many will attest!

“ I will Always…” love. ❤️ Well, that’s a given but there are 2 words I hear often in song lyrics. I will not share them but they have been mentioned a few times in other posts. They pop up from time to time and yet fit perfectly with Warrior. Music, lyrics, and songs like 2 listed above ⬆️ are at the top of the always things for me. Yep, they have to be because it’s ME which is part of the connection. There are too many to list but they mean a huge deal and keeps me on that cloud 9️⃣ ☁️. Another moment here is yesterday. While making dinner, I heard “ The Warrior” by Scandal on the radio. Wow, haven’t heard that in such a while. No tears anymore but just disbelief! I think I heard it on an April 1 a few years back. How truly ultimate and it made me smile. This was ( of course) just added but how beautiful to hear… 💪🏻

“ I will Always…” have my dreams. You didn’t think I’d end without mentioning those, did you? I have lost count but am hoping for more. He’s around or a reference of late but no biggies so far this year. He’s evolving as I understand and want that for him. Just once in a while, I will get a beautiful reminder so I take what I can. I’m evolving too, so perhaps they will not be as frequent as before. It makes me a little nostalgic but moving forward I must do while trusting his presence in other ways. I heard recently how nostalgia means “longing” and “homecoming.” Wow, once again. I love that, totally resonates. 🥹

“ I will Always…” believe of course as that is his slogan which should still resonate. It does for me. You can take it however you wish but without belief, we have nothing to hope for. No universal Creator, no eternity, and no hope in ourselves as humans to live a great life with passion. I need to always or will always acknowledge also all those on these journeys with us~~~ Warrior’s and mine who encouraged us to keep going despite setbacks or conflicts. I can name many on both sides. He had his challenges but ultimately I’ve had mine too. They are all admired for always pushing us to strive better.

“ I will Always…” have passion, conviction, writing, a legacy, honesty, belief, and a warrior intensity of my OWN…

P.S. I DID find a Bluejay feather last week so I will also always have those.

P.P.S. To Warrior~~~ I will always follow my gut as you did also. You are always an ultimate spirit shining your light as only you can…

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SNAP into it! ❤️💛📺

Yes, warriors let’s snap into it! A New Year is filled with fresh starts, ultimate beginnings, and a clean slate. Now that the holidays are over, I hope you were able to celebrate and yet get some much deserved rest as well. This post is just a great big ol’ mix of stuff without a real topic today so look at it as a “hodgepodge” of odds and ends. I had found a few pics of UW from different parts in his wrestling career (and one beyond) so you’re gonna see those these next few weeks of January. Do you WWF fans old enough remember how Ultimate Warrior was the FIRST “spokesman” for the Slim Jim meat sticks brand you see below, blurry and all? It was hard to get a still shot! He was in those commercials mostly shown on the weekend mornings along with their WWF programming. Yes, “ The Macho Man” Randy Savage made Slim Jim’s more iconic as time went on as I STILL see his image advertised to this day.

Moving on. I guess I still had a few “mentionables” from 2024 as they came into my thoughts. The Warrior Award was also discontinued this past year. If it still would’ve been presented, this year would be number 11. 10 years ago it began with Connor Michalek being the first recipient posthumously… I’m still upset that a little girl never got inducted. We never did hear officially as to why WWE decided to end it but with the release of Dana months prior, it made sense. I believe they strayed somewhat with its initial conception but nonetheless~~~ 2024 marked its end.

Speaking of dates, did you know this? 2025’s dates are exactly the same and lineup with 2014’s? I know this has happened before in years past and yes~~~ I am mentioning it because of 2014 of course. I’m not sure how I happened to look ahead at the calendar to know that, but it’s true! Check it out for yourself. So, for you Warrior fans, yep~~~exactly the same dates if you were thinking about April. I don’t want to dwell, but it will repeat of 11 years ago this entire year. I wonder how often this occurs? I’m not sure. Let’s continue this for a moment as I usually talk about a connection with wrestling. 1990 was 35 years ago. 😳 Think of your life. I was getting close to graduating high school with it being my senior year. For most of that year, UW was champion but hard to believe the early 90s were 30+ years ago now. That is crazy to me, 3️⃣ decades almost for some of those years. I started my preschool profession then too. I know you’re gonna check a calendar of some sort, aren’t ya? 😉

Another moment from 2024~~~yes, I thought of one more as it’s real funny. Remember me saying how I would try to watch any of SNME ( Saturday Night’s Main Event) but we were at my niece’s wedding reception that night? My brother actually got it up on his phone on the dance floor, but it was so loud in there to really hear. I just wanted to see the return of Jesse Ventura and hear the old theme music again! I did however, catch the last match back at the hotel. I knew Cody would retain the belt but wanted to listen to commentary. Another SNME is coming up so maybe I’ll catch it in its entirety.

Staying with WWE, did any of you fans watch the premiere of RAW this past Monday on Netflix? What a brilliant concept first initiated last year as they will for sure draw more fans and huge ratings overtime. Some might even be saying Vince who? 🫢 Well, maybe not but it’s an entirely new generation just like when VKM took it over from his Dad and Grandpa before him. I wonder how that will change the future of wrestling to be on the number one globally streaming platform?! It’s “ Unbelievable!” ! There, I quoted Vince from UW’s return in WMXII.

So, how will you snap into 2025? You don’t need a Slim Jim but what else can help you to make this year truly ultimate? I still haven’t set my goals, but I’m working more on grounding mantras. You might be confused but I need them when anxiety flares up. They are just statements to keep me centered despite what’s going on in the external world. I feel different energies and need to reset sometimes. A good book helps 📗( more on that next week…) so I’m into that. Snow ❄️ does not help but everything is temporary as we move through cycles of change.

I think I covered all those mixed up topics as more seemed to get added to the list. I hope all of you are doing well wherever reading today and again, I thank you always for your continued support of my writings. Whatever your reasons in sticking around, I hope to fill your day with some pick me ups, funnies, or even the more introspection we all need from time to time. My wish is for your year to go great as there’s no need to blast off like a 🚀 since UW did that on his own very well. Maybe you walk or even tiptoe into 2025. However you go, just go and continue going down your own warrior way. Snap into whatever feels right for you and don’t forget to always, always believe. Believe in yourself naturally before anybody else. I’ll catch up with you all next week!

P.S. I almost didn’t have a P.S. this week as I was trying so hard to see what the viewership was for RAW. Obviously, they don’t measure it the same way as with regular TV. The estimation was 3.6 million views, but I’m not sure how accurate that is. Either way, it’s totally crazy to see what the future in WWE will hold! 🫨😬😜

Channel Your Light ⚡️💫💙

*** A little side note here. I WILL be discussing some results of WMXL (40) but that will be NEXT week as this post was already written…

Yes, I know this title sounds a little bit much for possibly many of you but like I always say~~~ it isn’t what you may think. It came to me when thinking of several ideas in my life and reasons to their WHY… It isn’t one thing either as to the why of what drives us forward. More on this but first, a few announcements. Today, is my Dad’s ***80th*** birthday! 🥳 I have written on the day of many milestones but never one with other family members. I’m so grateful he has reached this day as he is quite a warrior himself. I wish him many blessings in HIS new decade. Next, it is my 365th post as well today. OK, like before~~~ WordPress will say more because of my “practice” posts years prior but I don’t count those! So, *** IF*** I wrote once a day that would equal a year. Kind of cool and wow for me. Thank you all for always reading if you do.

The last bit of news involves the date of April 14 approaching as I mentioned last week. That will mark 10 years since WWE aired the tribute on RAW celebrating the life of the Ultimate Warrior. My personal day with that time has been shared and will end these last two weeks of memories. I think of them all, reflect, and move forward with it in my heart. ❤️ Being grateful is how we need to be and I am, always… Do you all recall last week’s song of “Nothing Else Matters” by Metallica? I said earlier in that day of Wednesday just jokingly of course how hearing it later would probably make me SCREAM… Well, I DID hear it while working out and that hasn’t happened in a long time. I laughed and then screamed, just a little. There are no coincidences and it was beautiful to hear shortly after writing that post of 10 years on Warrior’s passing. 🥹🤭😮

So, does “channeling your light” sound weird or complicated to you? It doesn’t have to be and isn’t about some huge practices you need to take, not to worry. We have to unleash that inner warrior remember? When I looked back at many passions of mine, I realized how they have evolved since their inceptions. That’s probably true of all of us but then again, there could be those ideas we just love to love without explanation. It’s like kids who have those literal responses with one being a favorite of mine and will forever be. My son “singing” “Firepower” 9 or 10 years ago and after Mom grilling him, he says : ” I just know it, OK?” The *** BEST*** ever but of course, that was a little different as I digress yet again. My kids and all their “warriorisms” back then.

When I started working out as many may know, it was initially a way to beat the midwinter doldrums when cabin fever set in. Little did I know back then how it would become such a light I would channel into a passion. Just like Warrior… Well, in a way. Yes, he did take that initial interest into bodybuilding, but at that point had no idea it would eventually lead to wrestling. He wanted to be a chiropractor. I bet you have similar stories. My fitness has become a way of life in a more spiritual way and I love it, I don’t loathe it as many do. Yoga too was at first a way to just move different and then to be social. It has become so much more than that for me over the years.

Think of other fun stuff too that channels your light. I’ve always loved many things that would start one way, and then detour into the next. Even childhood memories such as bubble baths🛁 and bike riding 🚴‍♀️ have always been with me only now in a more adult way. This means, no kid toys in the tub as it’s more holistic now and bike rides aren’t with my old neighborhood friends. *** To go another way, maybe you’ve taken the same yearly trip every summer. It started as a family reunion but now it’s more relaxed in a new way. That’s longevity but we can create yet again. It’s what this life journey is all about. You loyal readers even know how my blog has changed with all those beginner topics. I would’ve had NO IDEA some stories eventually got edited into book form. It all began because the WWF was introduced to my family living room in the early 1980s. That’s the BIGGEST connector here with channeling my light because, come on, wow! My 15-year-old self seeing the Ultimate Warrior until now?~~~ unbelievable and yet there it is. 🫨🥰

Even when I had first contacted this woman to possibly join some type of spiritual group, ( not a cult!) , I could never have imagined it back then turning into what it has been. The book club, moon ceremonies, and, of course my wonderful friend who led me to know a *** BIGGIE*** on this warrior journey. Not to forget my energy healing, which convinced me after 2️⃣ dreams. Talk about a channel of light. At least it was for me and you will have your own “Now, I Know!” moments for sure. That phrase was from the Ultimate Warrior during his WMVII match against “Macho King” Randy Savage. I thought it worked here… Sometimes I might over analyze these times but for me it fits. You don’t have to but just become a little more cognizant of the WHY that led to that light that got channeled in the first place. You might’ve taken a small step towards something that became even greater. It may start as a certain idea like going to a yoga class down the street as convenience for me, but then~~~ the possibilities expand our growth as is necessary.

Warrior channeled the Ultimate Warrior just like that pic below to be a character he may not ever have even imagined at first. It propelled him to load the spaceship (from another planet 🪐maybe?) with rocket fuel 🚀blasting into wrestling mainstream culture for eternity. We feel deep connections for many reasons as some are fleeting, while others last lifetimes. Yes, I said lifetimes… if you believe. We can say “just because” but for many of us (hand raised here 🙋🏻‍♀️…) it is MORE… We may find the reasons why but often we just need to always believe while feeling, not questioning. Channel your light to know the meanings are deeper than first intended. Trust that you will know why someday if you already don’t. The light will only shine brighter if you channel it out into the world… 🌎

P.S. Looking back at my post of last year around this time ( which I do…) right at the top was the date of 4/5/23. I wrote how I woke up that day with the song “Nothing Else Matters” in my head… I never would have remembered that had I not looked it up… Maybe it will be a yearly song? 🎵 🤔☺️

P.P.S. 6 years ago was my very 1st book event ever on 4/5/18… Yes, that was a date I chose out of a few they selected… 😉📗

Words I Can’t Say 🫢🤭😮

Hello warriors! Before I begin today for any wondering– yes, my daughter got her drivers’s license! Whew. 🥳 Another thing crossed off my giant to do list which never seems to end. Such is life. All worth it on this crazy planet of ours for sure. Both kids start school this week. Son at college started Monday and daughter is tomorrow beginning her junior year of high school. Gosh, they have grown. Moving on...

My title of this post isn’t quite accurate but I couldn’t think of a back up one so this is it. Technically, they are words I CAN say but perhaps had or still have a hard time with. Some are funny which is good. They just connect to Warrior or wrestling obviously and are expressions I haven’t really shared before. I haven’t shared that photo of the Ultimate Warrior either as it is the last of the videos I chose. A three count of these past few weeks of course. 😌 This one was about facing the Honky Tonk Man in 1988 before the very first SummerSlam and winning the IC belt. Since I just wrote that word, let’s start with it.

Does anyone remember the 1991 song: ” Summertime” by DJ Jazzy Jeff and the Fresh Prince (a.k.a. Will Smith?) Well, I do naturally and do remember most of the lyrics. I would actually have a hard time saying the title as I always think of SummerSlam, right? You can’t see me right now but thinking to say TIME over SLAM was funny then. I’m surprised I haven’t heard that song this summer... 🤔

Which one is next? I think I’ll go with my last addition to this list which by the way, amounted to 6 words or expressions! This one made the list number 6. Just last week, my husband gave me that number 6 for this post so that’s a good stopping point, don’t ya think? He says “Holy Mackerel!” Yes, he does and quite often I might add. Always makes me think of Gorilla Monsoon as that was frequently said by him during his commentary days. I always chuckle since that saying is not said by my generation. Gorilla will be in my thoughts every time I hear it from my guy. He’s not that old but those sayings come out of his mouth... 🤣

OK, I’ll throw in an easy one here which is quite obvious when I think about it. The word clothesline has taken on a whole new meaning after childhood for me. To all you non-wrestling fans, this word was one of the Ultimate Warrior’s signature moves with his character. There are also those actual hung up lines of the past people would put clothes on to dry outside. My Dad rigged one up in our basement as a kid for laundry but outside one was for our swimsuits and towels by the pool. We used trees. I do see some in people’s yards with the actual poles still in the ground. My grandparents house had that but nowadays, for years it’s a wrestling move for me. I bet some kids don’t even know what a wooden close pin is...

The next one I don’t have a hard time with anymore but boy, did I almost 8.5 years ago. It’s the title of one of the WWE shows and with writing about Warrior- fans will know. RAW is the word. I did struggle with it, really I did. Warrior’s last television appearance before he passed was on Monday night RAW so I’m sure you can guess the emotion there. I would say “fresh” for foods like veggies instead of cooked or things similar. I’m better now with that word but it will always hit me differently. We take those memories with us.

These last two connect to WCW’s NITRO show which competed with WWE’s RAW on Monday night for 6 years. I had to look up those dates to be sure. Yep, that number again and how fitting today! Both of these words and phrases concern Warrior’s return to wrestling in August 1998. I’ve mentioned this plenty but how about when he makes his entrance? Tony Schiavone remarks: “it’s the silhouette of a man that we see right now.” Nice, huh? I think of a song because I would. Any guesses? I bet based on those words of Tony’s you can know. “Bohemian Rhapsody” for the win! We all know those lyrics by Queen. “I see a little silhouetto of a man…” I always say little? Every time when I hear that, I do. I did just watch that NITRO clip as the 24th anniversary was last week. The thunderbolts and lightning work well with Warrior in that song too but we’ll stick to the other lyrics. Yep, it’s there for me all the time for both. Are you singing it? I know you are. 🎤🎼

The final one is a word from Warrior himself. Best for last! Quintessential, there’s a word for ya. He was describing “Hollywood” Hulk Hogan as being a: “quintessential influencer” back in the day. Such big words from him but they always worked. At least for me. I hear that word often now and never much did. Always do I stop and ponder while giggling to myself of that word spoken by Warrior those years ago. I used to hear and see ultimate or even warrior everywhere it would seem and now quintessential. There. I’m not using that word again…

Those 6 fun words and phrases I don’t say but always make me smile that seem to come up a lot. I bet you have words too that remind you of a time lost but maybe not forgotten. People do remind us in many ways, don’t they? Sometimes we don’t even realize it at all. With summer ending soon, I get sad. ☹️ Maybe I’ll look up the song “Summertime!” Not SLAM, TIME… I still see clotheslines out too...

P.S. Speaking of SummerSlam, that was a whole month earlier this year. It probably would’ve been this weekend!

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My Wrestling Confession

Yes, I do have a wrestling confession to make is it may surprise many of you loyal readers on here. I’m not entirely sure what you could be thinking so I’ll tag you in. 😉🤔You probably have heard me say countless of times that I don’t watch any wrestling anymore and haven’t regularly since the Ultimate Warrior disappeared from my TV in Nov. of 1992. That pretty much has remained the same despite some little moments here and there. You all can possibly guess what those were all about. I have watched RAW more lately. There, I said it. The big reveal! The whole 3 hours? No. SmackDown or NXT? Not so much but again, some content on occasion. AEW Dynamite isn’t on my list either although Sting being there is awesome! My bro loves Chris Jericho.

Once in a while, I will be interested in a certain match and might catch a few minutes. I know for most wrestling fans, 3 hours brings so much entertainment and excitement but it seems very loooong to me. Once you get into a storyline or character, I’m sure the time flies but personally that’s even longer than watching a movie! I heard “The Batman” movie is that long but in a theater, I would need more cushion support to sit! 😜 I gotta give you WWE fans (or any other organization) credit for watching all that you do.

I guess after all, I have more to confess. Once WrestleMania XXXVIII ended, I knew videos would be posted. Yes, I looked up all the results but of course some matches intrigued me more than others. Boy, did they top themselves on this one! *** SPOILER ALERT HERE*** I also had to see The Undertaker get inducted. Despite my earlier posts of years past, that character has had an incredible run as the Phenom, Deadman, and of course Taker among other names. Thank you Mark for gifting WWE with over 30 years in the business. How about his hug with Vince? Too sweet… The Ultimate Warrior’s name should’ve been listed at the top since he was Taker’s first big name opponent, just sayin’! Never say never from him. We’ll see what happens... 😬🪦⚱️⚰️

Speaking of Vince, his win in the ring was a first at a WM and then the encounter with “Stone Cold” Steve Austin making a return. Legendary, just legendary. The Stunner wins again! Hard to believe WM runs two nights but with all those divisions, guess that’s a must. Everyone was talking about Cody Rhodes as well and we can’t ever forget all the amazing women Superstars. I’d stay out of Bianca’s way with all that hair, yikes! Oh, I’ve always loved Roman Reigns too. Oops, I never liked “heels” back in the day but he didn’t start out that way. Another confession.

Who is this girl going on and on about WWE? Clearly, she isn’t me but maybe this time, she came out to play a little. Does anyone old enough remember the other WWF shows back in the day? We had Superstars on Saturday A.M. at 11, Challenge on Sunday A.M., and then later on Primetime Friday at 10 P.M. I think– at least where I lived anyways. Let’s not forget SNME, The Main Event, and back when they only had a few PPV’s each year. There was just The Royal Rumble, WrestleMania, SummerSlam, and The Survivor Series. I do recall In Your House and King of the Ring but look at all the many more they do now. RAW used to compete with WCW’s NITRO and I remember WCW being on Saturdays after WWF at noon on a different channel. So, one could watch both if you wanted those two hours. Yep, just an hour each.

I added up some math here and get this. All 3 WWF (later WWE) shows at an hour a piece equates all 3 hours of RAW now. Crazy, isn’t it? You can watch 7 hours of WWE entertainment each week plus catching up with Peacock or even their Wrestling Network. SmackDown and NXT equally 2 hours each. I bet most of your fans do ALL that but in pure honesty, it’ll never be me.

Back in my day, an hour actually was enough— emotionally speaking! Unless I was watching SNME which took Saturday Night Live’s time slot being 1.5 hours. I’m not a night owl so staying up until 1 A.M. was always like a submission hold but I’d never tap out! Sometimes, I’d be babysitting until 2 A.M. and couldn’t keep my eyes open. 😳😴 There were those times like I’ve said before where that hour show became “continued” in a way with a match starting 5 minutes or so before the end! We were just left hanging until next week.

I believe I’m all done getting caught up lately but still know this. With social media these days, I know what’s going on and with always having my big Bro to let me know “important” stuff, I’m in the wrestling loop. You’ll not catch me watching one of their entire shows but if my WMVI DVD wasn’t skipping over parts, I would watch ALL of that and not just the Ultimate Challenge! That’s what I get for buying a used DVD, ugh… My old school girl self is always there or these warrior writings wouldn’t exist. She has evolved though and appreciates it all. Just think, Vince will be close to 80 when WrestleMania XXXX comes around! That’s only two years away– wow!

P.S. (Of last week…) I forgot my OWN number 8 connector this year. I got my Warrior logo tattoo on my daughter’s 8th birthday. She’ll be 16 soon...

P.P.S. So glad the crowd also acknowledged Triple H! He is an outstanding guy (:

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Oh, That Deja Vu… ☯️❤️‍🩹

We all have those moments of deja vu in our lives without truly realizing it but then again, there are those times that we do. Warrior’s final appearance on Monday night RAW April 7, 2014 brought some deja vu, at least to me anyway. A little of what he said echoed his past appearance of 18 years prior in 1996. That exact date was April 8th, (sigh) close enough to 2014’s. He also referenced the audiences with the word of “YOU” several times being voices that wouldn’t die becoming storytellers and legends. A 3.5 year absence doesn’t compare to 18 but a little deja vu, oh yeah.

I would often think of that word in regards to Warrior’s comings and goings. After an absence and a return, would it be like deja vu all over again? Would those same “difficulties” possibly surface regarding money, contracts, appearances, or any of that? Those weren’t always prevalent but some can say deja vu if issues repeat themselves. I, of course wished none of that stuff became like deja vu but every time was different.

Another reminder that is more recent involves the untimely passing of Bob Saget. It pains me to even type this as I still can’t believe he is gone. Deja vu hit my phone when I found out that news. I had gotten two text messages. One from my brother and one from my youngest sister. I loved the show “Full House” but mostly because of John Stamos. He was another of those celebs when I wrote “The Rebel Warrior.” The show was adorable but Bob was really incredibly loved by all. Those same two siblings also had me in a group text almost 8 years ago informing me of Warrior’s passing. That was another post but connects here.

They engaged in that for quite a while when I finally responded saying how I couldn’t respond but got all the messages. Those texts were so detailed like they were consoling me in such an intimate way. It was endearing but I got so defensive because of all the emotions. They knew it would hit me unbelievably hard and were checking up on my well-being. The texts about Bob were brief but I immediately thought of deja vu as it seemed to repeat again only less personal. Neither had ever texted me so close together about another celebrity death.

Whew, moving on… My home now has some deja vu with my childhood home. Both are older, both have big backyards, both had grapevines, both were places with pools, and probably so much more. When I moved here, yep- deja vu struck again. We can have life imitating art or vice versa. Even dreams will maybe send us that deja vu as we go about our lives thinking we’ve done this before, been here already, or something similar. Dreams can go even deeper for some in their past but it’s all a belief system. I know a few that have very strong connections to a certain way of life involving a culture or even a specific place. Past lives are part of a belief but that certain kind of deja vu hasn’t happened to me. It still may though, who knows? 🤷🏻‍♀️

Sometimes we repeat an idea or activity because we like it and it feels right. Other times though, we repeat it because subconsciously, it works in our life whether we realize it or not. I know that sounds crazy but I’ll use some easy examples. Let’s look at wrestling since, I dunno- just because! Vince made Hulk Hogan the WWF champion over and over again back in the day. So many reasons factored in like popularity, money, the character worked, and others. I realize this technically isn’t deja vu but hear me out. That is a business and is scripted unlike our lives but it’s a literal example of something repeating.

How about our lives? We repeat what works for our own reasons but on a deeper level, there’s more. It’s familiar and comfortable because it’s part of us. I like to write when I was younger but no idea déjà vu would be an issue 10 years later. Most that do a fitness routine may become robotic over time and yes, that happens with me too. Warrior probably would switch his repetitive routine sometimes as well. We want to stay fit. Those things are routine but your true passions will affect you differently.

A passion can become dormant for a while and then resurface when you thought it was done in your life. I’m sure you can think of examples of your past kind of repeating in a new or unexpected way. Warrior’s return to the WWE in 2014 brought about much déjà vu for him I’m sure as he remembered many memories -great, good, and bad. Just think of another NOLA appearance he made in 1984 with bodybuilding and then 30 years later for WMXXX weekend. I’ve mentioned that before but déjà vu playing out again.

I think with most déjà vu moments, they are more subtle than direct. We know our every day stuff or routines but think of those times that perhaps aren’t as obvious. You might not know why something resonates with you at that moment, but it just does for whatever reason. It may just connect to a recent past memory but maybe the déjà vu goes way back. It can get tricky though as we do repeat activities for a lifestyle but there might be more to it than that.

Whether one believes in déjà vu as part of them or not, it does exist as we sometimes just gloss over all those moments in time. We say: “been there, done that” often but deja vu sneaks up on us when we aren’t expecting it. Sure, it can also come about as planned like big stuff typically does but the little things should get attention too. I have written many stories about little thoughts that matter just as much as the big ones. Many did involve déjà vu but not always in the way one might think.

Look at your life for those déjà vu moments and accept them as part of you. It doesn’t have to be super deep all the time and quite often, isn’t. You may not have a repeat return, a backyard memory, or a text message but déjà vu is there. Our past does come back in doses to remind us to stop and think of two little words called déjà vu and what it truly means in life. If it repeats, look to the real reason why. I can agree with this most ultimately! 💙🙋🏻‍♀️🥰

P.S. When some of my spiritual gifts developed more, it seemed to fit so naturally like I wasn’t just learning it all for the first time. Déjà vu indeed for you deep soul thinkers!

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To Find Yourself 💙🧠

“For a man to truly find himself, he has to go one place that we’re all entitled to go to. Deep, deep, deep in the mind…”

All you Ultimate Warrior fans probably know that speech he gave on RAW back in 1996. I won’t share the exact date because well, you can look that up on your own and you’ll know why. Jerry Lawler had commented that he was a “lunatic” for talking that way before Goldust came out but again, I get it. It does take quite a while for anyone to truly find themselves because we either are afraid of spending time alone or being judged. Being judged would be mine only years ago and not be people you’d probably think.

Back when I watched good ‘ol WWF, the Sunday morning show of Wrestling Challenge became an emotional ultimate challenge for me. That day we went to church so Superstars on Saturday was a no-brainer depending on which T.V. in the house I chose to watch. While in high school, my Dad decided switching churches to another which was a further drive. The service began at 9:30 and wrestling came on at 11:00. We ALWAYS made it back but guess what I’d be thinking about during the service? Yep, of course. If I knew the Ultimate Warrior was going to be on, I’d get so nervous and antsy. I always felt like lightning ⚡️ would strike me down for not paying attention! 😳

After my brother joined the Navy in Sept. of 1991, I lost a part of myself or so it seemed. Watching wrestling pretty much alone wasn’t the same anymore and I missed our funny banter. So grateful to reminisce with him now… My family knew I still watched but for some reason, I became a “closet watcher.” I’d sneak to watch on any T.V. I could access but change the channel when someone came in the room. That reminds me of Warrior’s story from the book “A Life Lived Forever.” He remembered his step-dad doing the same thing after “Jim” came home from being out with friends. If you can recall, I never shared much about wrestling with my friends but to hide it from my own family who knew I watched seems odd, doesn’t it? 🤔Why was I afraid? Probably because I lost a guy to watch with and was so conditioned to believe it wasn’t for girls. I had to find myself again.

I remember a few times after church when my Mom would be making breakfast. For some reason, Dad didn’t want the T.V. on in the kitchen anymore so I might miss the whole show. I actually would make up excuses to not come down so I could watch WWF upstairs in my brother’s room. Let’s see– a stomachache, I’m in the bathroom, ( for an hour?!) too tired and need to lie down, or anything else. Sometimes SNME was on the night before or I’d be babysitting late so being tired would be a legit excuse! I’d eat later around noon. Did Mom or the others ever figure it out? I don’t know. Maybe I just didn’t ever feel comfortable without my brother but I gotta say– never did I miss it despite my excuses. Think I still watched despite U.W. being gone briefly in ’91. Cable ended my run a year or so later but Warrior had moved on and I did too.

Have you ever felt like you lost a part of yourself and needed to find it again? No, I never watched that much after late 1992 but what are your moments where parts needed to come back? You can go deep in your mind or explore other activities like Warrior but be the one to decide if what you lost is worth finding again. I never thought Warrior would re-surface in my life ever. It wasn’t until I bought a magazine in ’93, (Warrior was making the movie Firepower then) and a few years later finding an Action Figure which brought him back to me in a way. Both of those are great stories! Warrior also never thought after all the years of fueding with Vince that he’d ever be found again. Funny how fate has a way of lining things up that we couldn’t imagine ourselves. This is such a testament to my spiritual journey now.

I do know that never would I have looked up Warrior on my own had it not been for some things which became public. Finding myself didn’t mean watching wrestling anymore or even knowing what Warrior was up to. It meant not being afraid of judgments or ridicule for doing something I liked- whatever that could be. I had to learn to have more confidence in myself which took a long time, even into adulthood. Part of this was my own fear. It was me being fearful of all the emotion that would come as a result of not only following anything Warrior was putting out there but admitting it was o.k.

Whatever is preventing you from finding yourself however that looks, don’t be afraid. It’s your true essence calling out and saying: “I know you’re scared but do it anyway!” Once you finally go deep in your mind, heart, AND soul is when the truth will be found. Warrior had to spend lots of time exploring who he really was as a man but stayed true to himself. Sometimes, parts of us get lost, confused, or mixed up but we eventually get led back by fate or the Universe. To find yourself takes hard work but when you do, it’ll never be lost again. Be the warrior who goes deep as we are entitled to go to. Find yourself for your true nature knows the way.

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Moments and Memories

This post will conclude my experiences and emotions regarding five years ago with Warrior’s passing. I’m not sharing my whole day of shock upon hearing the news on April 9, but wanted to relate my grief and the tribute on RAW April 14.

When my brother informed me of the tribute, I had no idea of what to expect. I just knew for those brief minutes that WWE would be on my T.V. that night. The whole day my stomach was in knots as time passed way too fast. I became more immersed in my activities while trying to avoid distractions. So many scenarios played out in my head as I anticipated that volcano inside my throat. 🌋

I had to tell my husband why I wanted to watch RAW which we don’t. So needed to form my words correctly without tears. Prior to this, it was our family game night that the kids initiated a few weeks before. They picked Clue Jr. and Mama calmed her heart to play. Sometimes these games take too long and had to mention possibly cutting it short. There was something on T.V. their Mama needed to watch. Luckily, it ended with about 20 minutes before 8:00–RAW time.

I explained to my husband how my favorite wrestler passed away recently and they were giving him a tribute on RAW. No big deal to him really. Why did I care so much? After all, it wasn’t just his T.V., right? The eerie part for me was where I sat to watch. Really wasn’t even thinking but ended up in the exact same spot I sat a week ago. A week ago when Warrior was still alive making his last television appearance on RAW. That didn’t faze me until later. Very different feelings just 7 days ago.

While watching after several minutes, my husband saw part of the Ultimate Warrior‘s IC title win over Honky Tonk Man. He looked at the T.V. pointed to HTM, and asked:“Is that him?” He meant Warrior. Since I never liked the bad guys as previously blogged, my face grimaced some while slowly saying:“Noo, he’s the other guy…” Not wanting to cry, a little smile formed on my face. Let’s just say emotion-wise that his comment about HTM was better than if we’d seen Undertaker!!! So very glad to see the Honky Tonk Man get inducted this year.

Guess the humor was needed for just a moment. My husband was completely clueless about all this and I wasn’t ready to share. I was actually better than I thought during the tribute but music gets me every time. Every single time. The song “One More Time” by

7 Lions was perfect with the part played. It seemed so wrong to hear the Ultimate Warrior’s theme music without seeing him running or just physically there. I applaud Triple H for getting the crowd going as hearing that music, well, you just can’t sit still. I do have a post about “Unstable” coming soon so stay tuned… Of course the next day, I watched it all again by myself tissues in hand. 💔😢

After the memorial tribute was over, I knew that volcano needed to erupt. I tapped my foot constantly while digging my nails into the side of the couch. I told my husband he could change the channel as I left the room.

Going upstairs to be alone seemed too obvious so I made my way into our half bathroom off the kitchen. After a few moments of silenced sobs, I turned on the faucet full blast to mask my tears. My ugly cries came yet again. That early April made me lose my voice from grief but I blamed it on the exceptionally warm spring which brought about my “cold.”

I’m sharing my story not out of extreme sad memories or my horrible emotional state back then at all. It is being written to show how grief knows no barriers whatsoever. We all grieve, even over losing things. It isn’t just people. I’ve even grieved over getting our new van a few years ago after having our first one 11 years. This year, it’s a new pool that’s replacing our old one and yes, I’ll grieve again. Am sure Dana grieved when selling Casa de Warrior a few years back.

Your grief is yours alone and it knows no time. You will know what journey is truly yours and there is no comparison. Some can say I was crazy to grieve so long and hard for a celebrity. Believe me, I questioned it also. Grief never fully goes away but just changes over time. I debunk many myths we buy into in my book Spirit and Belief.

I kept so much hidden for various reasons and very glad not to hide anymore. Slay those naysayers warriors! Don’t ever feel like your grief doesn’t matter because it does!! Perhaps Dana seemed so strong to all of us but she has such a huge support system which I never had.

Remember that we all need to be validated and go thru a process to get where we are today. We all go in different directions but need support along the way. I validate your grief for whatever reasons and truly understand. We need to let it out and not push it down. Without my process, I wouldn’t be doing all I am now in memory of Warrior. He gave me that validation and supported me from the start.

So, I am moving on from these moments and memories as I continue making new ones. Please do that too. My humor will be back very soon as it is the backbone of many posts! I realize sharing your grief or stories can be so challenging but know you are not alone. Grief makes us stronger.

Just don’t wallow too much as the spirit needs to laugh as well. Make that grief your OWN and let it pass as it needs to. A Warrior is strong but also tender. Celebrate how your sadness makes you real because it matters. A relative, celebrity, an object or memory, we have them all. Some we lose but some we keep. Make sure you keep what’s important as it reflects your life. The ones you keep are imprinted in your soul. Never let anyone deny that of you.

I will never forget April 14 as another moment and memory for me but know it let to a higher purpose. My story makes a difference just like yours does for you. Never by defined by myths, they are meant to be debunked. Grief will lead to joy. Go with it and your strong warrior self will make it truly ultimate. Being “sensitive,” “emotional,” or “too dramatic” isn’t a curse. It’s a blessing and what a life lesson it has been for me. 💙💪🏻🙏🏻~~~ Kathy